The Old Woman

Remember when you didn't know better

When an unknown stain came 

Your body changing faster than the girls around you

Being foolish and teasing the boys and falling

deep into the spell of one

Remember that first inhale of toxic smoke, they thought

you were a regular cause you didn't choke

That cool appearance now, you look back and smile

You didn't know better when you were a teen

You didn't know who they were or where you belonged

You spoke to them all

The parties came, you had your first sip and it was nothing but

emotional bliss

Years before that you had only one thing 

That would stop the thoughts that raced,

that piercing zing

Oh, you had discovered such a wonderful thing

No need to hide the consequences that stayed

A result from when your strength had failed

No marks visible with this liquid

You're free to refill your cup

Wondering if it will ever stop

And their tongue's in your mouth and you just don't know

What your future beholds and

When you wake up you will see

You've shed the life you once lived

And the shedding becomes more rapid

You will kill yourself over and over again

Until it's really your end

Now you have no time to pretend and

There's no point partaking in mortal debates

Because the mortal community does not make sense

You'll wander aimlessly not fitting in while they all tell you

You're living in sin and you think to yourself

"What a wonderful thing" 

You'll wander until it is your day to rest

Allowing you to leave behind this forsaken mess

Reviews

[RayLynn]

This is a beautiful poem!
I love this so much
You're doing a wonderful job, hun, keep it up!

[Evelyn]

Thank you very much for your kind words RayLynn means a lot.

[Planet x]

I loved it , very much
I hardly read long poem but I just couldn't stop ,
it was wonderful writing , I enjoyed it so much

[Evelyn]

I am very glad that you enjoyed it enough to keep reading Xpressurself, thank you for your words.

[Damien Ridge]

Seems like a very unfulfilling life full of despair... Seems nice when you're young but where does it get you when you're older, your habits haunting your mind and health. Good poem, thanks for sharing!

[Evelyn]

Appreciate your comment Damien, thank you for reading.