The Persistence of Loss

short n sweet, will have a continuation of this chapter

The Persistence of Loss

The gray sea wasn�t even growing close to becoming tiresome of looking at, and the cramping in her stomach from not eating was hardly noticeable. Every time she began crying again she�d force herself to stare back out the window at the sea, then eventually she�d stop.

This process had been going on for two days straight, not eating, not showering, just crying, and staring out the window. What else did she have to do? No one else was talking to her, after the incident with Christian. Her family told her to spend the rest of the holidays at the beach house alone, and after Hallie told David everything, he sure as hell didn�t want to speak with her, let alone date her anymore. With Christian she didn�t even have to wonder if he�d talk to her, they�d probably never see each other again, and trying to accept that made the two days sitting by the window seem like a minute. She needed more time, and she wouldn�t stray from her view of the ocean until she could quit crying, and maybe that would be forever.

Then she considered the best idea she had since she returned to the beach house. She went into the bathroom and flung open the medicine cabinet, grabbing the first bottle of pills she saw. She ripped the lid off emptying them into her hand as several fell onto the bathroom floor. She wasn�t even crying as she looked at the little harmless looking circles laying in her hand, just looking at them like she just looked at the ocean for two days, without jumping in and drowning herself. She tried to figure out if she was done looking, and couldn�t believe it had gone this far to where she was about to stuff a handful of pills down her throat.

By telling David everything, she thought she�d feel relief, and by letting Christian go she thought she�d feel closure, but all she felt was more heartache then she could ever imagine, and it seemed the only way to get rid of it was to stop the heart that was beating misery all throughout her system. It was a brash decision, it wasn�t like she�d been planning to do it, but just thinking about everything that happened it seemed like the most liberating thing to do.

Just as she was contemplating her decision, she fell on her knees at the sound of the door slamming against the wall. It had already been partially open since no one was home and whoever was standing there must have seen all the pills on the floor.

�Christian?� she cried in a raspy voice. Feeling dizzy she was unable to make out who it was.

�Hallie! Oh my god! What�s going on?�

Two manicured hands grasped onto Hallie�s wrists forcing her to empty the pills out of her hands.

�Abby,� Hallie acknowledged faintly.

�Did you take any of these?� Abby demanded.

�Not yet.�

�Well you�re not going to! I can�t believe you were trying to kill yourself!�

�I was just thinking about it,� Hallie confessed.

Abby kneeled down next to her in disbelief. Hallie was never the type to be suicidal, nor to look like she hadn�t brushed her hair in a week, she was the gorgeous girl everyone wanted to be, a supermodel, well shorter and not so giraffe like, but here she was, a mess on the bathroom floor. It was true, everyone had their problems no matter how beautiful or rich they were.

�Why? Why are you doing this?� Abby said nearly beginning to cry herself.

�Because I lost him, and I hurt him so bad, for no good reason,� Hallie sobbed wiping the already black streaks under her eyes from mascara and lack of sleep.

�You�re talking about Christian, aren�t you?�

Filled with emotion that Abby came just in time before she did anything stupid, and everything she was relaying, she responded by hugging her friend crying out the little bit of tears she had left. Eventually the two girls got off the bathroom floor, and Abby walked Hallie up to her bedroom. Before she completely crashed out she took a glimpse of the watch that seemed to sparkle even in the dark room. David certainly didn�t want it after Hallie told him everything, and so she became stuck with it, the reminder of Christian, and everything that went wrong. Maybe when she woke up she�d find somewhere to stash it away so she wouldn�t have to look at it anymore, but something that beautiful was pretty hard to forget about.


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Reviews

[Wolfwind Words]

Perhaps it was pride, or ignorance that made her make the choices she did out infront of her house while Christian and her father faught. Now she's feeling it. Perhaps it's the dose of reality she needs. I'm glad to see Abby got there just in time. Haile needs at least one friend to watch out for her, untill she has time to get her head on strait.

I love how you have used the watch as a symbol that will be a constant haunting for Haile. It's a perfect symbol to use. Time and Glitz. I think she knows that to gain true happiness the life of glitz and glamour has to go. I think that's what makes it hard for her.

Another Wonderful Addition to the Saga!
A loyal fan!
Infinity's Shadow

[Tuff Stuff]

Loved it! Can't wait to read the next chapter!

:)

[Mysteral - Night Prowle..]

How often we say or do something, and then realise it was the wrong thing, and end up regretting it for life...
Great writing... I mentioned before, but seriously, have you ever considered a career writing soap operas?

[bluessadmood]

yes i think pain and guilt at some great mistake ,and ruining a dear lover life,she was behaving sickly from the beginning with the dear poetic fellow,i think now she is feeling what wrong she has done ,but this written beautifully,really,the style ,the way you showed the grief,it was really great

[ShadowWolf]

Realizing a mistake and losing a love is so painful. You have described perfectly.

[thecoolone52]

its ok hes gona save her in the end hahahaha i liked this one....... short and to the point....... hit me up wit the next one

[MorganLyn]

Oh geeez, here we go again... I've felt her pain though. When you lose someone that means that much to you and it feels like everyone else hates you, the only clear decsion you can make is to end it all, luckily I wasn't that stupid.

awesome chapter! I can't wait to see what happens!!

[Rita]

Ohh my. I hope things get better.


And trust me, you don't have to send read requests :P

I already check frequently for any new chapters ;)

[Rita]

Ohh my. I hope things get better.


And trust me, you don't have to send read requests :P

I already check frequently for any new chapters ;)