Distorted Memories

Distorted Memories

A Poem by FallenHeroXx
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Just something new i wrote on one Depressed days

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Shame
I am so overwhelmed by all the guilt
The guilt and shame that I couldn’t 
Couldn’t rid myself of
It carves my bones and scares my completely 
I wasn’t really in for all this hate and panic

Anxiety
I guess my anxiety is still real
Everything I feared has come true
I couldn’t stop it and it is taking it’s toll on me now
I still these f*****g nightmares they make me scream
In fear, in fear of death tearing us all apart again. 

Hate
I am so hateful and fearsome about this
These broken promises on top of broken trust
Hate is what drives us to a point of extinction 
Dread and panic is what I want to remove
Solace and my dreaded love is what makes me hate someone

Sorrow 
I want It to be cleansed, but it want go away
My fear is what brings me into these states of grief and agony
Hatred turns to sorrow and once again I am brought to this statement
It’s not hatred just f*****g sorrow, but I’m still here
This is some form of chaotic insanity
My  mind just mismanages me, but I still hate this

But I am still here and I just wanna be next to…
Next to the way to take away this pain…

© 2010 FallenHeroXx


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Honest Opinion: I think you're a good writer, you express yourself very well, and I believe you have the potential to succeed in whatever you choose to do---you seem to be very intelligent and you should give yourself more credit.
Honest Opinion: Unfortunately, a lot of people go through life dealing with many of the topics you wrote about. It's not a matter of trying to "remove dread, panic, fear, agony, pain, and hate" from your mind, it's a matter of learning how to control them and replace them with POSITIVE things that make you feel more valuable. If you search for better things in life, you WILL find them, and you're already off to a good start by reaching out and expressing yourself to many people online who take interest in helping and replying back to you with positive feedback. You WILL get through these tough times---no doubt about it---just believe it and have confidence in yourself. Thanks for the read request. Good job!---Honest Opinion!

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mir
Honest Opinion: I think you're a good writer, you express yourself very well, and I believe you have the potential to succeed in whatever you choose to do---you seem to be very intelligent and you should give yourself more credit.
Honest Opinion: Unfortunately, a lot of people go through life dealing with many of the topics you wrote about. It's not a matter of trying to "remove dread, panic, fear, agony, pain, and hate" from your mind, it's a matter of learning how to control them and replace them with POSITIVE things that make you feel more valuable. If you search for better things in life, you WILL find them, and you're already off to a good start by reaching out and expressing yourself to many people online who take interest in helping and replying back to you with positive feedback. You WILL get through these tough times---no doubt about it---just believe it and have confidence in yourself. Thanks for the read request. Good job!---Honest Opinion!

Posted 13 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

this was really good. its still dark, but these are emotions we all feel at some point. this leaves me with questions, which is a good thing. Obviously you want the path to healing and peace of mind, and it's a rocky road. at least you can acknowledge any mistakes you've made. that's a step down the right path. times may be hard, but somewhere along the ride they will get better

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

This is also a very good poem. I do this quite often. I feel all those emotions. Wish we could manage our emotions? I do.

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Love it! It's so clear on everything. Keep it up!

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

The heights of joy cannot compare to the depths of sorrow wonderful job.

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Just great, i enjoyed reading it once i got around to it lol

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Great poem, tells true emotions that alot of people feel today. The only thing we have left out of that battlle is hope and to be strong. Great job.

Posted 13 Years Ago


I like the "Hate" part alot :D
You're a very good writer, and I admire the fact that you aren't afraid to use swears in your poetry. Alot of people think that there are a million other words you can use to describe something just as well, and using swears just makes you sound like a bitter angry person.
Well, alot of poetry is ABOUT being a bitter angry person, so I think the swearing here works to your advantage.
btw, I know you're shooting for the "emo" look, but seriously, tone it down some.

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

You have found the beauty in the pain...it is my belief that in order to move beyond the pains of life we must first dive in completely and feel the sorrow, hate, anxiety and shame. We become stronger by knowing these things fully and then by contrast the happy and beautiful things in life's future shine more brightly. Very well written poem.

Posted 13 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

To be healed ain't so easy. We are overtaken by anger, disappointment and sorrow. I like the feel and the emotion of the poem. I learn with age. The mistakes and pain will make us stronger if we learn not to repeat them. You made many strong points in this poem. A outstanding poem. Thank you. No weakness in the poem.
Coyote

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2 of 3 people found this review constructive.


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