I will Grow Up

A child struggling against society.

In time I'll be immune to the pain, 

In time I'll learn to ignore the need to say or do something. 

In time, I'll learn the art of ignoring someone as they talk (or text)

In time, I will harden my heart to the world. 

In time, I will grow up.

In time I'll be the mature 'man'. 

In time I will stop caring about people and feelings, 

In time I'll be as cold as the wind,

And people will be means of achieving an end. 

In time, I will grow up.

Perhaps then, you'll like me better. 

Perhaps that is what people want. 

Perhaps that what I need to be.

Perhaps I need to grow up.

In time, I'll kill that little boy who dared to love.

In time I'll kill the boy who dared to look at the world with an uncolored gaze.

In time, I'll kill the boy who loved to laugh and cry at all the little things.

In time I'll kill the little boy that worshiped Goodness and Kindness.

In time, I'll learn to be cruel and mock and laugh as I strip soul after soul of innocence.

In time, perhaps, I will grow up.

~SOUL LESS.

Author's Note

It's very raw. I wrote it to someone in a WhatsApp, totally impromptu, so yeah. It's just emotions.
I guess it's kind of Free Verse, but it doesn't really have much of a structure either. Well, it was impromptu.
It's not really literature, so any suggestions are welcome as to how I can make it better I guess.

Reviews

[Ibreez Shabkhez]

Nicey thing. much like... tasty much.

You will grow up, and rather well.

[Zoya]

Very relatable. The cruel world, the cruel people, they change the kind-hearted souls around, in a bad way for sure, and make them to be like them. No wonder the child was another prey. It's really sad. You express the emotions really well here. Very well written!

[SOUL LESS]

Yup. Incredibly so. I hope I never grow up. I hope I never lose my humanity :D

Thanks for reviewing!

[Zoya]

The only courageous ones here are the people who choose to be humane, even in this kind of atmosphere. Even I wish to remain the same my entire life. It was my pleasure reading the poem!

[Moebia]

You're alive! I didn't know you still used this website! I read your things years ago. And once again, you do not disappoint me. I really love the way you begin each time with "In time." It's almost as if one is waiting for life to jade us in order to grow up. But in a sense, that is what happens, isn't it? The last stanza really shows your perception of what growing up is, and from a much darker perspective than others care to look through. Are all adults inherently cruel by the nature of being grown up, or do they become this way as an act of self-preservation? The world is a cruel place. Thank you for this read!

[SOUL LESS]

Lol...I'm alive, yes. And I wrote a couple of things now after a gap of around 5-6 years I think. I got caught up in College and my job and totally gave up writing. But then a couple of things happened, strong enough to make me write and so I did. Wonder how you found my writing though.

Thanks for reviewing. Glad you liked it. I think it is self preservation tbh, people become embittered in strange ways; also we have both good and bad inside of us. So there's that.

Thanks for Reading!

[Sapientiam]

Wow... I saw too much of myself in this. Trusting people all the time and never learning from betrayal, using kindness as a sheath from the pain the world brings, that is how some people live life. I'm too kind and innocent for my own good, which makes me feel as if I will never grow up. Ah... Adulthood can be insufferable, but it's worth taking the risk. I've learned that silence can be a huge voice and ignoring society can be bliss. Well done!

[SOUL LESS]

Thanks for reviewing! I feel the same way. I actually don't want to grow up. It sucks. Silence is amazing. Silence and Patience. I'm working on them atm.

[Sarusai Hiryu]

Brilliant stuff, laddie. Keep the poésies coming!