Falling From Reality

My Thoughts

The nights I spend alone in my room,
are full of the memories and sadness I had known,
The tears of a million times I couldn't let them flow,
The thoughts I had pushed behind me,
But full of despair,
I lied here,

Starring at my laptop,
In a darkened room,
I don't really understand what to do,
The music's playing soft,
almost unsure how to sound,
should I be happy,
or break down,

I'm falling endlessly,
at least that's how it seems,
falling into the nothingness that awaits me,
I feel my past fading into the background,
my eyes closed shut,
I'm finally at peace,
darkness closes around me and the wind picks up under me,
my hair flying through the wind at a rapid speed,
the wind on my face,
The cold chill in the air,
I feel like I belong here,

I appear in a city street,
walking slowly in the snow,
a black scarf wrapped around my neck,
as a long coat grazes my side,
my breath creating images in the air,
I open my eyes to see no one around,
The music deciding its choice,
begins with a piano,
so full of sadness in every key,
the strength overwhelming me,

I began to jump a little farther in my step,
while walking under the streetlights,
The snow falling gently in my hair,
I began to be swept off my feet,
Into a effortless dance,
My body moves as one,
finally I don't have to think,
my mind leaves me,
everything feels so free,
I'm spinning wildly,
no one can judge me,

my arms lifted up by the wind,
I fall back into the snow,
I'm lying in the street,
I breath out,
its all ok,
 I say to myself,
stumbling in my memories,
they are all coming back to me,
I cant escape them for long,
It all comes back to reality,
but...
I don't want reality.

Author's Note

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