Unshed Tears

Unshed Tears

A Poem by FlamingPhoenix
"

...what doesn't kill me...

"
What began as FWB
Has resulted in
You

owning all of

me

I've grown
blossomed
and evolved

Into a stronger woman
who knows she cannot solve

The worries and problems of

Your life

Forever Yours
and unwilling to close the knife

I desperately miss the days
when I felt

wanted

Scars of a broken heart

forever

will I be

haunted

I wanted to give my whole self
to You

And now I wonder

if of the big picture
I have lost
view

Can I truly be anything more
than
Your
friend

When in Us
it is not just me
in which I
depend

Trust
and promises

on both sides

now broken

I struggle to find words
in a self
now chokin'

On beautiful memories

that I hold
dear

I thought in You
I could let go
without
fear

Now I sit

broken

and alone

Without a purpose
and
without
a home

Wondering why
I chose this
path

Struggling to avoid
becoming consumed
in wrath

Choosing
to live
a lie

So through my devotion

I can find my place
by
Your side

Feeling unwanted

and
regrettably

used

In giving You myself
did I
open myself
for
abuse

I've committed myself to this path
and
to You

I wish somehow
We could begin
anew

Those feelings

in our early days

Seem to have vanished

and


faded



away

I fight my insecurities
to see
the pure truth

As I sit drinking coffee
in a Denny's booth

In many ways
You
are trapped
and wish
to escape

Cherished moments
with just You
I long
to make

Have I become Your means
to an
end

Should I have stopped
at being
Your friend

What
and who
to You
am

I

Cascading
down
My
face

Tears
of
doubt

I
now
cry

© 2014 FlamingPhoenix


Author's Note

FlamingPhoenix
FWB = Friends With Benefits...an acronym once used as a playful term of endearment

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I truly liked this poem. The use of the language and the flow of thoughts took me in. Thank you for sharing the outstanding poetry.
Coyote

Posted 8 Years Ago


One of your best work, this describes the relationship well.

Posted 8 Years Ago


Lovely structure the poem was beautiful and was a good description of the relationship. But as they say nothing is permanent and so is this pain.

Posted 9 Years Ago


One of your best work, congrats!

Posted 9 Years Ago


I love this. It is probably one of your best pieces, and perfectly explains the pain. I agree with Frieda however, the FWB would be better explained in some other fashion, in my opinion -- either the actual name, or something more general -- like what started out as fun ...

Posted 9 Years Ago


Not sure everyone is going to realize what FWB is, but you've written it aptly. We take a chance when we cross that line....

Posted 9 Years Ago



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Added on August 30, 2014
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Tags: Trust, broken, alone, tears, pain, sorrow, love, forgiveness

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