Mirage Elixir

The opening of my poem Lost and Beautiful

I stare out my window in the pitch dark night
It was like this[silence] I put up a fight
I see a long dark trial
I Want to close my window but Im too frail

So I sit in the coldOn my sweet windowsil
I beg myslef not to do it but I always swallow the pill
My Dress you see it hides my bruises
But thats not all it has more uses

I sit on the ledge I breathe in cold air
I wish I could be running alone out there
I look up at the stars and I start to cry
I promise myself I won't say goodbye

I sing a lullaby wipe my eyes
I shouldn't have to hide
Look to the trees fix my hair
But I'm Not a "doll" this isn't fair

I Have no strings I'm not your toy
Broken seams your only joys
You pulled my hairpushed me to the wall
Just you wait until I leave you all

I'm not a mermaid can't breathe underwater
You are not my "Master" only step-father

You see I know all your lies
Your very stupied shouldn't hide
Go on tell them how you punished me
Or where you to scared thats why you hit me

Or maybe thats why you locked me in this room
You gave me one window and led me too my "doom"
This is not a story this is real life
Thank God I have my hidden knife

I am not your Little "perfect" doll
I like to dance when the rain falls
But I am lost you made me trip
Apparently I'm beautiful and you think thats it

I am more than a pretty face
I have scars more than a trace
Dont look at me like I'm your mistake
This is your fault and it shouldn't be my fate

I am notyour "Perfect" Doll
I try to hide when it turns to nightfall
I am not a butterfly for you to inspect
But because of you I am wreckked

This is not just a pretty flower
Lost all alone in a tower
She's not a piano you can't play her keys
She won'thave the key to her destinay

She isn't a prisnor you cant keep her trapped inside
She has feelings you dont know cuz she hides
There is something special about this girl
Watch her dance and then a twirl

Her smile is perfect she dances with Grace
Her eyes sparkle no scars on her face
Her hair falls perfectly with beautifulcurls
She is what we call unique like pearls

She loves to run with the breeze
One day she hopes to be free
She lays on the grass looks up at the sky
Makes a wish then asks why

She stares out her window every night
Knowing she will have to fight
She is strong and very brave
But acoording to "Master" she doesn't behave

She is a prisoner but you can't see the bars
But its okay she still has scars
She has sweet dreams of a pretty place
There wont be any pain there not a trace

This is her bitter sweet wish
Maybe it doesn'ty have to end up like this
She stares out her window looks at the sky
But not tonight shedoesn't havesay goodbye

 

-SilentlyBeautiful