I Close My Eyes

A Poem by K

a little love poem, still angst though. idk.

I close my eyes

and

it starts over again.

burning. just one sensation. it engulfs me and tears me apart and reaches deeper breaking more shattering all and every

single

thought

i have.

icy cold. were you trying to extinguish me or was it an expression of hatred? I try to believe it was the former, I do, but my eyes tell me otherwise. I never knew an angel could feel so much disgust until today.

you're still an angel, though.

it burns in my head - you, thoughts of you, mostly you and just you, a small flicker of a touch and - you're gone. and I'm back in the dark trying to find my way out hoping you'd come back for me and believing you would. was it an honest hope or was I trying to make myself feel better?

not that it worked.

water drouses fire. you were the water to my fire, the moon to my sun, the softer side of my rage.

everything burns tonight.