Story of my Philanderer

when emotion dies.. morphosis is inevitable..

Since that day, I did not try to forget you. But yes, you were not always on my mind. Whenever I sat idle I would think of our "merry days" and it moistened my eyes. I reached out to you in dreams and sometimes in reality too. Yet I had to return empty handed from both the places. Some days I would look at myself breaking into a thousand pieces.. all I would feel was pain of losing you. I tried to be strong, initially I failed, with time I learnt the art.

I would imagine how you'd love stealing glances of my smiling face and I would instantly glue my pieces together and wear that winning smile.

After a while nothing worked. The memories couldn't cure me. So I decided to bury the betrayal, take home the happy ones and move on. I met a lot of people in Life till date. Never tried to replace you but place someone properly in my life. Cupid tried to strike at me quite a few times but seemed to miss the aim. I gained a few close friends, lost a lot of could be friends. Life seemed new for a while and still in silence of the nights I would search for my old self.He was gone, lost with you.

Its the complete new me now. I look at life with pessimistic optimism. I let myself explore all unknown territories. I laugh blissfully, I cry morosely, I act childish, think mature. I do a lot of things I used to do n a lot of things that are new. 

My Life took a turn since you left. Good, bad or ugly I wont decide as of yet. I am turning or already have turned into a philanderer. Conclusively I can say-

 

"Tere jaane ke baad,

Zindagi haseen toh nahi

Par zindagi ke taradaddudon mein

Aaj ya kal koi kami bhi nahi

Yaad tujhe karte hain aaj bhi

Bas aankhon mein nami toh nahi

Ishq ke dard se beparwah ban gaye 

Aise duniya mein akele hum hi toh nahi "

Author's Note

Regional language used which means this way:-
After you left me standing all by myself,
My life isn't as beautiful as it used to be
But Emptiness isn't such a bad feeling after all
In your torturous memories no more i shed tears
I''ve realized I'm not the only heartbroken here
I have learnt to LIVE with and among the HEARTBREAKERS....
I am proud of what U made me, what I've become.. a "philanderer"

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[Shiveon]

ik aks tera hi nahi is kaaynaat ki justuhjoo,
shaksh mila hame bhi,
milta tujhse Hoobhuu.....

[Frozen Eyes]

In labzo mein toh puri kahani simat gyi.. umdaa :)

[Frozen Eyes]

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