Dear Mom, Dear Dad...

Dear Mom, Dear Dad,

I know you’ve seen me smile

I know you’ve seen me laugh

I know you’ve lived throughout my energy

But Mom, Dad,

It’s gone.

I’m not the girl who you used to know.

I am a lie.

You’ve seen me come home and lock myself away.

You didn’t see me cry ‘till I wondered if that was all I could do.

You didn’t see me lose friends or become miserable

You could sense something was wrong but…

It took a while for you to find out

That I had been tearing up my skin

Tearing away people I loved, like you.

You found me on the floor with my eyes closed

An empty prescription bottle beside me

You rode the ambulance with me

You were guilty because of me

You hated yourself because of me

You cried every night because of me

And you thought I couldn’t see

But I know how bad it feels

And I put it on you

Everything I have to make you proud

Vanished in front of me

I would yell because daddy wasn’t there

I would yell because mommy used to hit me

I would yell because sister would just stand there and watch

I would yell because that was my life

I would cry because I thought the one thing I could do was

Escape…

I couldn’t even do that right.

Dear mom, dear, dad,

I know you love me even if you don’t always show it

Dear mom, dear dad, I love you.

I’m sorry I put you you through what I did.

I’m sorry you cried because you thought I wasn’t the same anymore.

Dear mom, dear dad, I tried to live with it, but I don’t know how to

Walk around with pain and guilt anymore.

They say things will get better and I need to hope they will

Because I want to try harder,I want to be a better daughter.

Dear mom, dear dad, I’m more sorry than you know.

Reviews

[Tbear]

This is the kind of piece that changes with ones mindset and addresses all perspectives..giving incite and inciting emotions that lead to more writing.. i look forward to reading more of you... write on..

[Gina]

You don't know how much that means to me! Thank you so much and I am glad you enjoyed it!

[Jimmy Yetts]

Conflicting emotions.
You are, however, on the right track.
There are few things, Gina, that humans cannot love their way out of.
Compelling read!

[Gina]

Thank you so much. Yes that is very much true. Your comment means a lot!

[Brina]

This is so honest and powerful. It's beautiful.

[Gina]

Thank you so much Sabrina!!