Promises

Assignment for my language arts class, it's about the past three years of my life

I promised myself I would stop playing with my imaginary friend

I was getting much too old for her

I fulfilled that promise but before I did she got back at me

You see, we did everything together; went everywhere

But I was getting older and it was time to move on

Yet she did not want to, to move on; to cease existence just like that,  no

She clung to me, engulfed me

I started to question just how imaginary she really was

I promised myself I would never cut myself

But I did

And afterward I promised I'd stop

Again and again and again I promised, just one last time, and I'll stop

And, eventually, I did

I promised myself I'd never skip a meal, never stick a finger down my throat.

But I did

And afterward I promised I'd stop

Again and again and again I promised, just a few more pounds and I'll be pretty

And, eventually, I was

I promised myself I'd get myself under control

I promise and the words fire like arrows from their quiver

The quiver of my lips and my fists as I scream

Again and again and again

I hate you!

And she laughs, because she knows it is true

Because she knows that I know

It is true

I promised myself I could handle it

But I couldn't

She promised me a way out she said

Just this once, pull the trigger and there will be nothing but calm

Oh, how I craved the serenity of death, the tranquility of the end that lay so easily before me

Just one move, one second, and no more pain

I got the gun, safety off, and with one in the chamber I aimed it straight at my head put my finger on the trigger and almost pulled

That's when I realized I was crying

I took a second to reflect on my reflection

I took a look at my emaciated self and thought

How did I get like this?

And this thing before me was poignant, grotesque

I did not like my likeness

I promised myself I'd be happy

And I am, sometimes

I promised myself I'd get better

And I surely am

I told the voice in my head to leave, and when I told her to never come back she said

I promise

Reviews

[Kurayami]

I like this piece of writing. It started out quite innocent but then as it progresses, it became something else. I sincerely hope that the character in this piece of writing isn't you. If not, do you have an imaginary friend even now? Thank you.

~Kurayami

[GingerPocky]

Thank you for your review :)
Yes I wrote this about the past three years of my life. I do still have an imaginary friend but she's much nicer now :)

[lissa3333333]

This poem holds so much meaning that is relatable to many people. It flows well and captivates the reader. Great job!

[GingerPocky]

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[Haley Wilson]

This has a super deep and intricate meaning, and it hits close to home for me. Stunningly tragic!

[GingerPocky]

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This was a painful and stunning reality and wonderful realization. Your heart beats and loves...YOU.I'm so glad you listened to that love. You are here for reason. Let it be an adventure discovering your purpose and knowing your worth :)

[GingerPocky]

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[Aclestile]

Very nice poem. It's long but clear.

[GingerPocky]

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[DayDreamerAmber]

This is awesome I love reading it!! Really got the point across

[GingerPocky]

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[wordman]

well this is a intresting story,i really enjoyed tthe read,and you penned it well

[GingerPocky]

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