Promises

Promises

A Poem by GingerPocky
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Assignment for my language arts class, it's about the past three years of my life

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I promised myself I would stop playing with my imaginary friend
I was getting much too old for her
I fulfilled that promise but before I did she got back at me
You see, we did everything together; went everywhere
But I was getting older and it was time to move on
Yet she did not want to, to move on; to cease existence just like that,  no
She clung to me, engulfed me
I started to question just how imaginary she really was

I promised myself I would never cut myself
But I did
And afterward I promised I'd stop
Again and again and again I promised, just one last time, and I'll stop
And, eventually, I did

I promised myself I'd never skip a meal, never stick a finger down my throat.
But I did
And afterward I promised I'd stop
Again and again and again I promised, just a few more pounds and I'll be pretty
And, eventually, I was

I promised myself I'd get myself under control
I promise and the words fire like arrows from their quiver
The quiver of my lips and my fists as I scream
Again and again and again
I hate you!
And she laughs, because she knows it is true
Because she knows that I know
It is true

I promised myself I could handle it
But I couldn't
She promised me a way out she said
Just this once, pull the trigger and there will be nothing but calm

Oh, how I craved the serenity of death, the tranquility of the end that lay so easily before me
Just one move, one second, and no more pain
I got the gun, safety off, and with one in the chamber I aimed it straight at my head put my finger on the trigger and almost pulled
That's when I realized I was crying

I took a second to reflect on my reflection
I took a look at my emaciated self and thought
How did I get like this?
And this thing before me was poignant, grotesque
I did not like my likeness

I promised myself I'd be happy
And I am, sometimes
I promised myself I'd get better
And I surely am
I told the voice in my head to leave, and when I told her to never come back she said
I promise

© 2015 GingerPocky


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I like this piece of writing. It started out quite innocent but then as it progresses, it became something else. I sincerely hope that the character in this piece of writing isn't you. If not, do you have an imaginary friend even now? Thank you.

~Kurayami

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
Yes I wrote this about the past three years of my life. I do sti.. read more
This poem holds so much meaning that is relatable to many people. It flows well and captivates the reader. Great job!

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
This has a super deep and intricate meaning, and it hits close to home for me. Stunningly tragic!

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
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This was a painful and stunning reality and wonderful realization. Your heart beats and loves...YOU.I'm so glad you listened to that love. You are here for reason. Let it be an adventure discovering your purpose and knowing your worth :)

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
Very nice poem. It's long but clear.

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
This is awesome I love reading it!! Really got the point across

Posted 4 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)
well this is a intresting story,i really enjoyed tthe read,and you penned it well

Posted 4 Years Ago


GingerPocky

4 Years Ago

Thank you for your review :)

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Added on May 14, 2015
Last Updated on July 29, 2015
Tags: promise, broken, promises, dark, past

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GingerPocky
GingerPocky

West Jordan, UT



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I'm a 17 year old ginger girl who enjoys writing poems and stories. I'm also very lazy about writing and take forever to write something I feel is worth keeping, so I most likely won't be posting new .. more..

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