Glutton For Punishment

I want to

Make yoy see that what you think of me isn't true

That what I do doesn't have to always be centered around you

I want to

Make you remember what it's like being lost.

Forcing yourself not to find yourself, forgetting to remember at every cost

Screaming

Eyes streaming

Keeping it all inside

The hurt and the painand the constant blows to your pride

I want to

Rewrite my own story, unscrammble the lines.

Change the ending

Do some mending

Cut the twists and the lies

You antagonized me

Vandalized me

Showcased my broken heart and mind as you victory prize

I want to

Delete all the pictures, untangle from your voice

I didn't want to deal with all this, you gave me no choice.

I want to

Stop dwelling on how small I felt when you lied

And how you'll never even realize how you screwed me up inside

I think that's what hurts me the most, how you don't understand

And it's that twissted fact that I live for it...that I'm a glutton for punishment...