Now I Get It

My mother loves you

And I love you

And you love me

So why don't we fit right?

Things have changed since we were young

Back when you wanted me and I was selfish

But then you moved away

Tell me why you called

Why you called every night

She would always do something that hurt you

And soon enough my phone would ring

Your voice would be soft, yet broken

Short pauses for deep sighs

Or just so you could think right

Every moment we spent together, I savored

You just wouldn't leave her

Though we would sit in your car

Prolonging our "friendly" hugs goodbye

And soon, it was done.

You had been set free.

We saw each other every week

Falling asleep on your shoulder

Turned to sharing the same covers

Turned to intimate sleep overs

Turned to being struck with a boulder of bad news

You started talking about eyes of blue

But, mine are brown

Here comes the wall

And I meant nothing at all

But you're still my best friend

And we still drive around till summers end

But, I cant reach you

I have tried and tried

I have told you straight to your face

But you just ignore it

When we were young, I said we'd be better off friends

How could I have never noticed?

Thats all you have been saying now. 

I made this happen

Now I ride in the back seat, watching you fall for one after another

The college girls who dress like their Stepford Mothers

Then theres me

Tattoos and blue hair

I get it

Its cool

for you, its just not there

Author's Note

this is all over the place......

Reviews

[Alice Poésy]

This is such an intimate piece which needs so much courage to write.

"All over the place"? Nah. It's stunning. Your words radiate so much emotion and pain which takes so much skill to do. It's personal, but also very relatable, and that's not something everyone can write.

There's nothing like the pain of falling for someone we've known most of our lives and seeing them fall for someone else. Love has a very rotten sense of humour. From one woman to another here's a hug. And good job, I will most definitely be looking through more of your work :).

[Lorry]

Poignant, heartfelt words on a love that time never found to be at the right time. You happy being there, but gives you a front row seat for every car crash relationship that comes along, seeing them torn apart, wondering why they can never find the right one, because they never think to look at the one closest of all. You nailed the emotion of it superbly.