The pain I'm in

I'm in a dark room

sometimes bright

but now it's dark

the room is silent

all you can hear is the water dripping

 

This is where I was

for 3 years

trapped

 

Please don't just assume

that I lost my sanity

I already accepted this

as my reality

 

Whips and other devices
made for one sole perpous (sp? lol)

pain

 

But pain is my friend

pain tells me I live

that I'm still alive

 

I'm used to being strapped down

the constant beatings

the constant blood loss

 

my back covered in scars

sadist men taking pleasure

pleasure in pain
my pain

 

I'm not on the brink of insanity

I'm quite sane

as sane as you

as sane as the sky is blue

 

Many don't live long

they can't bear the pain

the same pain

that I'm in

 

someday one will ask

if I live to a day
a day I'm free

is that how I survived

 

Pain is my friend

as fear and sadness

they infrorm me that I'm alive

 

But one day
the day for the first time

the day when pain stops

 

then I see my body

my eyes blank

a smile at my lips

 

Now I know

I'm free

with one last glance at my body

I leave