Obsessions

It's constantly there.

Glaring in my mind like a picture I could never forget. 

With every second ticking by on the clock, it just becomes stronger and more incessant.

I close my eyes.

And it is all I see. 

I watch the images pass by, as if a film is unraveling from every inch of my brain. 

Not even dreams can deter my thoughts from going back to it. 

Then my eyes open.

Even as I stare at my friends' faces, at my daily surroundings, I can still hear it in the back of my mind.

When I start to zone out, the image becomes sharper. Clearer.

As if I can reach out and touch it, maybe even taste it.

Am I in love with it?

It's a possibility.

Even with these strong feelings, my heart could still shatter to pieces from it.

That's the thing.

Loving something and putting so much faith into it, only for it to all fade away like a cloud of smoke.

But will it happen?

The truth is...

You could never know.

Because it controls you.

You think you're in power?

Well you're not.

You are just the puppet, and it is the puppeteer.

Every emotion you have is decided by it.

Has it thrilled you and exceeded your expectations?

Then you're happy and full of satisfaction. 

Has it disappointed you gravely?

Then you're grim and betrayed by it. 

It is terribly unhealthy and making you mental.

And that is why you're addicted to it.

Nothing could ever capture your attention in any way, other than this.

Just make sure it doesn't end up killing you.

Author's Note

Another sort of rambling by me. Over a year old but it still is relevant to my life. Leave your thoughts on it below! xoxo

Reviews

[Symone]

wow, that's good.
i can understand what your talking about, sometimes it does feel like you're being pulled along. the sad part of it all it there is times that you can see that you are being dragged along, but there is this strange force that keeps you from being able to break away. i guess the best way to describe it is the saying "people will experience the feeling of the internal struggle of the feelings of the brain and those of the heart."

[Chris]

a good portrayal... insightful vision and expressive "voice".

[Ally]

This is really awesome! I find it incredibly relatable and I think thats the best part of it, how you describe it so well we can all feel it and understand it. Great job!

[Haley Wilson]

Thank you, lovely! Xx

[Pryde Foltz]

You are just the puppet, and it is the puppeteer.
Every emotion you have is decided by it.
Has it thrilled you and exceeded your expectations?
Then you're happy and full of satisfaction.
Has it disappointed you gravely?
Then you're grim and betrayed by it.
It is terribly unhealthy and making you mental.
And that is why you're addicted to it.
Nothing could ever capture your attention in any way, other than this.

Been there … the key is to not allow yourself to think about it … shut off the thoughts. g

[RileyRedding]

I really enjoyed this!
Not at all what I expected, but I feel as though I can relate.

[Haley Wilson]

Thanks dear!

[Nitesh Mahabal]

Great u can describe mind set n the way they make u feel so well. its weird actually this things happen n u cant tell anyone about it. U did it very well maam. loved it

[closed]

solid write, with alot of craft behind it. It's one spoken with the authority that lends you a rather impressive voice.


-Dream

[Haley Wilson]

Thank you!!