Words To Say and Thoughts to Think

I show you a smile upon my face
you see happiness in my eyes
Thats not the case at all
Thats not what is truly going on
in the darks of the night
those tears start to fall
that smile is no longer
upon my face
In my heart I wish
I was gone
You dont know my life
You dont know my pain
You dont know me
the real me
I try so hard
to be what everyone
wants me to be
I fill myself with pain
I dont fit in this world
but why am I even holding on?
I hate life
I cant stand living in it
She said she was my best friend
but yet she laughs at me
and makes me feel like s**t
all my friends
slowly die off
my life is getting worse
but i keep saying
It will get better
I know it will
But yet.
Its not
I cry and cry
But when I look in his eyes
I just smile
When will i smile for real again?!
When will i have a dad
who will see me
instead of pushin me aside
when will he relize me
he knows i wanna go
but he pushes me aside
one of these days
it will be too late
and what will be left
for everyone to say is
just
Goodbye
And will never know why..

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

Not all people should be parent. Some people lack the gift of love and kindness. I like the honest and direct feel to the poem. I learn to be a good father by the poor example of a AWOL father. Thank you for the excellent poem.
Coyote