Vanish

I sit in my dark corner,
weeping out my heart.
The numbness wants to take me;
it’s hands grip like ice.

A bit more than sometimes
I wonder who I am,
who I know,
and if what I know is real.
Because sometimes,
or a little bit more,
the lines of heartfelt truth and bitter lies
are unrecognizably blurred.

They can’t seem to understand
who I am at all.
Why I do and say certain things
and why I leave out others.
But they should know.
They should understand
that not everyone is alike.
Not everyone thinks the same.
But of course they don’t know
why I am me
and not anything like
them.

What they’re doing to me
has its own sad tale.
It traps me in the sands of pain,
of fruitless suffering.
It traps me in a desert
that I cannot escape,
binding and twisting me,
throwing me into the sand storm,
where I am in darkness,
slowly suffocating in
my own life.
In my own mind.

Why can’t they see?
Why can’t they understand
that every time he yells,
every time she threatens,
they kill a part of me.
Ripping my soul into
tiny little pieces to be devoured
for their own selfish reasons.

But I can’t tell them that
they’re turning me into a shell,
devoid of personal cares.
For I am their loved one,
as they are mine,
and hurting them is
not an option and
never will be.

So I have my secret,
my lovely little secret,
that will never see the light of day.

For when it does, I shall be gone.

Reviews

[darkgurl]

I think this is a powerful write here so full of emotion. Very well written!

[r]

this is a beautiful piece

[Taylor H.]

I liked this. I think you should be through and re-check the flow and spelling but I really enjoyed this peice. :)

[Denise Deas]

Absolutely great. I love it and can relate quite well. A beautiful write i'm pretty honored to have read it lol. Really Really nice. The whole thing, the expression, the emotions. its all there and very very good. An Amazing poem.

[alyssa]

I really can relate to this...i love the way you expessed everything...truley amazing write.
alyssa

[Krista]

Omg. Its amazing how much I can relate to this poem. I don't know how I feel about that though. If its good or bad that I can relate to it. It was really well done though.

[Demetria.Ro$e.Hathaway]

grate poem

[thisXgirlXcanXrawr(:]

Absolutely amazing, I was left speachless, great job on this. =]

[John McGrael]

oh my god

this is incredible, this is breathtaking, i almost cried
this poem describes me perfectly, to the last little detail

i seriously almost cried, and i barely cry anymore after what ive been through
(cause nothing is bad enough to make me cry anymore)

thank you for entering this into my contest!
(i say right now that itll definitely place in it... but ive said that about 8 of the other entries...)