The Revenge Poem

The Revenge Poem

A Poem by Heather-April
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So, I had my heart broken, and this is a poem I wrote to let out all of my anger.

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The Revenge Poem.



I always thought you and I would become a love story.

One we would share with our children, and theirs also.

Showing how a romantic wedding meeting as a young adult would become a happily ever after.

That we had the truest love of all fairytales.


I tried in every way to be the girl you wanted me to be.

I became a shell of my true self, all because you wanted perfection.

Letting go of all of the things I loved about myself, and refusing to believe I was beautiful.

You destroyed my confidence, and I was lost.


You told me you were in love with me, and will always feel this way.

Though, moments later, you told me I was second best and if she was there, you’d never be with me.

How did you think it would make me feel?

Well, I was already drained, so the pain was what I felt I deserved.


I quickly became a girl you could emotionally abuse.

With bad relationships in my past, you continued the theme without any concerns or difficulties.

Clearly, you were messed up.

But let’s face it, there was no reasons for what you’d soon put me through.


You told me you invited a girl to stay the night.

We both knew if she agreed then she would sleep in the bed that you asked me to share with you.

It was not okay.

But you got mad at me when I was upset with the thought of you doing this.


You told me touching another girl wasn’t cheating.

You knew I didn’t agree with you, but got mad when I expressed my view on the subject.

You didn’t like the feeling of me doing it.

So, why did we have different rules within our relationship?


I’ll always admit when I am wrong.

I looked through your phone, I looked in your bedside table, it really was an invasion of privacy.

But it was clear I had a reason to be suspicious.

I found her underwear and messages that you had lied about.


There was nothing I wanted more than to scream at you, and maybe even throw something.

But instead, I allowed you to be the one to finish things between us.

For some reason, I couldn’t stop myself from begging you for another chance.

Me… I was begging you. It should have been the other way around.


The break up was the hardest.

The type that you never think you’ll ever heal from.

Where your heart is torn from you chest and shattered into a thousand pieces.

Silly me, I believed you were the only thing that could heal me.


I done everything I could think of to make you want me again.

I starved myself for weeks and forced hours of exercise on my body.

Only stopping when I had to run from the machine to ensure I didn’t faint in front of my sister.

You called me fat, and even to this day, it still affects how I look at myself.


I begged you for another chance.

Changing my appearance, my weight, my hair, my clothing, my personality. Everything about myself.

I told you I would never do anything like it again.

But I know now that you should have been the one pleading for forgiveness.


It may have taken a year for me to realise.

And maybe some things you done have left some scars on my heart.

Though, I know now, I am a thousand times better than you.

And I don’t mean that is a bad way, truthfully, I feel sympathy for you.


You tore me down until I was nothing.

You made me feel that I wasn’t good enough to be in this world.

But now that I broke your spell on me, I have realised the truth.

You only ever made me feel this way because you felt the exact same about yourself.


So, this may be my revenge on you.

Because despite knowing everything you were feeling, you still made me hate myself.

But I still don’t wish you any harm or hardship in the future.

I wish for you to grow old and have your own fairytale, like I will have also, telling your children how to truly treat someone you claim to love.


I know one day I will be ready to feel this intense emotion for another man.

And the next time I do, I will make sure it is perfect before I let myself fall.

Waiting for this day might be slow and emotional.

But I am beginning to feel excited for what is yet to come in my life.


You no longer will have a holding effect on how I look at relationships.

Because the connection you and I had was over before it ever truly started.

And I was just too scared to see it in the moment, because I loved you.

Now, the feeling is simply a distant memory.


So, all I have left to say is this.

Goodbye to all of the memories we had with one another.

Goodbye to all of the pain and all of the aching.

Goodbye to you, Z. Simply, goodbye.

© 2021 Heather-April


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It may have taken a year Heather but you got there well done.
To be honest he sounds a bit of a Bawbag hen
But
Love is blind, and we take our chances
And if we are lucky already you seem to be
We learn
Not to hold everyone else at bay by building walls
Take your chance
You do deserve it
Keep writing
It is full of emotion
Although painful it also shows your strength
Read more from Yoon hopefully
See you oscar





Posted 2 Years Ago



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Added on February 19, 2021
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Tags: Poem, Heartache, Broken Heart, Relationship, Revenge

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Heather-April
Heather-April

Glasgow, Scotland, United Kingdom



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23 year old writer from Glasgow, Scotland. Published Author, seeking advice and feedback on writing technique and skills. Genres of writing: Romance, True Crime, Horror more..

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