The Pallbearer

The Pallbearer

A Poem by Gee
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Carrying heartbreak

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At first I'd ask, want to know everything,
age, sex, how they died,
not now though.
Now I just do as I'm bid, what I'm paid for,
carry, place, respectfully nod, then leave.
I find it's easier that way,
don't take them home with me
to think about them, their lives
and the sadness they've left behind.
That is unless it's a wee one.
It's different then.
The small, pristine white wooden shrouds
adorned with soft toys, flowers, tears,
they always come home, are adopted for life,
making for fitful sleep, tossing, turning,
and solemn, sober reflection in the small hours.
The wife tells me I care too much, am too soft,
that despite my size I am more mother hen than pallbearer.
I guess she's right, she usually is.
I smile at this thought and try to switch off.











© 2019 Gee


Author's Note

Gee
Just for the record I am not a pallbearer, just imagining the emotions they must go through or try to block out.

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Adapting to such an environment is not easy initially, as I learned when I became a Medical Photographer" and faced with post mortem investigations.
Switching off, " is not being callous, but is essential if you are not going to become a "casualty" yourself. Respect does not have to suffer, though.
Your poem expresses this beautifully.
Norman

Posted 7 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Gee

7 Months Ago

Thank you Norman



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A thoughtful write Gee. I guess in the main these people are trained to do their job and in most cases detach themselves from the personal details, but carry out their duties with professionalism. But they are human and cracks will appear. Young lives cut short before they have had a chance to find their wings will get through even the toughest character. Without a doubt they will feel it. I do. Good morning.

Chris

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Hi Christine, I for one couldn't do it, far, far to soft.
Thank you
"be the most reliable person at your father's funeral" - Jordan Peterson

I don't always like this guy but sometimes I love this guy... this poem reminded me of a small part of one of his lectures.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDcOuTdjq8E




Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Good morning David. Just watched a couple of snippets from you tube, like this fella. He definitely .. read more
David george

7 Months Ago

He can be kinda cunty, but tends to be very sound in his logic far more often than not. I'm a prett.. read more
always makes you wonder i guess,who and what,maybees and could bees

Posted 7 Months Ago


0 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I would rather be a mother hen and too soft than hard with a ice chip for a heart. Being a pall bearer for ones you know is hard, not sure how I would feel if it was someone I didn't know, but I am an emotional person so who knows. I really liked this, a story and a poem all in one wrapper, its a great thing when you can sum up that much of one mans life in such a short space. Great writing!

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Thanks Crowley, chuffed you enjoyed the read
No ...it isn't. It is a fair depiction of life as we live it... quite for real.

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Thanks for reading and commenting Chris.
fiction can still make some of us hard men shed a tear or two... and this damn it .. or rather these words, just goes to prove my point.. N

Posted 7 Months Ago


Neville Pettitt

7 Months Ago

pleasure, kind of.. I think you know what I mean.. have a great Monday :)
Gee

7 Months Ago

You too...got a stinking cold :))
Neville Pettitt

7 Months Ago

am just getting over one... a cold that is :)
Hmmm....the life of a funeral director? I don't think someone can be too feeling...too empathetic. I know you said this is fiction, but I liked it. Good character study! Lydi**

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Thanks Lydia
"they always come home, are adopted for life" -- this hit me, I loved this whole piece but this line stood out.
Don't delete it! I think it's powerful and thought provoking and full of emotion.

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Thanks Lilly
I get the feeling this is pure Gee from the heart. Not that you've been a pallbearer for a living, but that this softness of the heart you mention is drawn from a close spot which feels vulnerable & authentic. When you describe "not getting involved" (earlier) it reminds me of animal shelter volunteering . . . you can't get too attached . . . you express those sentiments so realistically! (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 7 Months Ago


Gee

7 Months Ago

Thanks Margie, well keep the " soft" bit to ourselves :)
Hope you are well
barleygirl

7 Months Ago

This is the best winter in ten years . . . feeling much better than I have for a long time! *yippee!.. read more

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