Wish this can stop

Sorry I haven't been active in forever I have depression and stopped doing what I love doing I somehow remembered that I signed up for this and thought I should share some of my most recent writings

I have suicidal thoughts running through my mind
Tears dripping from my eyes
I know this world isn't kind
But I'm sick of all the lies
Why do we have to live this f*****g way
Hate is taking over everyday
Endless nights I lay
Hurts me inside
I'm losing my damm pride
Another night no one heard that I cried
Losing my hope Yes I am
Losing my dreams as well
Man I'll rather go to hell
Alone no hears that I yell
Smiling but in pain man no one can tell
I laugh with everyone
But I'm holding the gun
I'm just saying I'm close to being done
My dreams are all gone
Tired of looking at the sun
The dark is where I belong
The voice I see is not wrong
I try my best my best
But nobody expects less
I'm struggling to much stress
But the more I try the more I'm pulled down
F**k it I might as well drown
The mask tells you I'm happy but no one can see my frown
Just wish I can wear the crown
But I'm just the stupid clown
Kill your self the demons tell me
Pain will be no more
You'll be free there's the door
I refuse to go
But they know I'll be there soon
All night I'm looking at the moon
Mornings live day by day
Wishing I had a blade
Afraid to take my own life
I just stare at the knife
Knowing my dad is missing his wife
Not knowing my pain
Nor the demons I cannot slay
All they do is wanting to play
But what can I say?
I need help but for some reason I can't ask
Wishing this cannot be my past
I'm at the end my life won't last
Soon I'll be buried under the grass
But like all things it will pass


Impartialwolf

Author's Note

Tell me how I can improve what I did wrong your thoughts and whatever else anything I promise I'll try to be more cooperative I'm just going through a very tough time