Later on

I try not to think anymore
To not toss and turn in my bed no more
To not listen to sad songs
Cause i know once i do
Memories will be flashing around in my head
And i will be remembering you
A pointless thing
Not good for my heart
Just like anxiety
Which can't be solved with medicine
Even worse than a heartbreak
It takes your breath away
Just like you did to me the first time
That we met
But let's forget about it
Tonight im not sad
Tonight im not gonna cry
Im going to sleep
With a resting heartbeat
With a smile in my face
While im happy with myself

Reviews

[barleygirl]

As a survivor of extreme child abuse (continued rape), many times I used the old adage "fake it until you make it" -- meaning, act like a healed person, even when I felt pretty broken. It can take years to heal from lots of different traumas, so we really do have to fake it until we make it. I love how your poem paints this process with an authentic & empathetic touch (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

[Intothemilkyway]

Oh my, that's so terrible to hear. But im very relieved to hear that you are ok and doing well.
read moreOh my, that's so terrible to hear. But im very relieved to hear that you are ok and doing well.
*big big hugs to you Margie*

[Chris Shaw]

How to turn a sad situation into something positive. That takes courage. An inspiring little write intothemilkyway.

Chris

[Levi Levin]

Sometimes we have to fight against things that bring us down and replace them with things that bring joy. Great job!

[Intothemilkyway]

Yes that is so true. Thank you for your kind words.

[Levi Levin]

Your welcome!!!

[Unspoken poet]

Wow, this is just amazing, I have anxiety and trying to sleep in horrible.
Very well written and expressed.

[Intothemilkyway]

Yes anxiety is the worst. I know how you feel.

[pinhead07]

Aah, memories of we thought to be the one, they never leave us alone, do they? I too have spent many nights tossing and turning in bed. I always had insomnia, never thought it was so bad until she left me. Sad songs kept me company all the way. Got diagnosed with depression, anxiety and insomnia a couple of years later, a couple of years of me doing drugs. The pills give me little to complain about. She's still in my head though. The days and nights now, most of them're good, thank God.

"Just like you did to me the first time
That we meet"

Over here, I think you meant to write "met"

[Intothemilkyway]

The pills never help. Only you can help yourself.
I tell you, i know it's hard to forget but you got to do it. You got to think of yourself and your health.
You shouldn't hurt yourself, it ain't worth the trouble that she gave you to keep her still in your mind. Let it all go and be free.

Thank you for letting me know of the mistake, im gonna fix it now.

[pinhead07]

Yeah, they don't, I guess, not that much. When it comes to forgetting at least. I haven't had sleep deprivation in quite a while though. I know I should totally forget her but yeah, I guess I'm sort of weak, that first love always stays with most people. I'm just hurting myself, I realize, that feeling of rejection has stayed with me and will probably continue to stay with me for a while it seems. But I'm slowly getting over it, I feel. The last couple of years were kind of rough, didn't even speak to anyone, didn't want to. Now I'm starting to open up and get over it all. Thank you for your concern. Hope you're doing well :)

[Intothemilkyway]

I do hope you get over it. I know it's difficult right now but im sure you will get over it.

Thank you, im doing well too.

[John the Baptist]

Good for you. You've found the right space; stay there and don't listen to any more sad songs.

[Intothemilkyway]

This made me laugh.
Yes it's very relaxing not to listen to sad songs for a while.
read moreThis made me laugh.
Yes it's very relaxing not to listen to sad songs for a while.

I have come a long way to heal myself and be at peace.
I have learned so much from my mistakes. I know im gonna do things right now.