Thinking

This is very personal. It might not be nice to read it´s just thinking in words. Sharing thoughts.

It´s coplicated. Life´s complicated like a friend told me in his f*****g bad English. We both aren´t native English speakers. I learned his language, too. We didn´t spoke the same language. Now we do. More or less at least. It´s enough to talk.

Well, like I said live´s complicated. Love´s complicated. To be honest I doesn´t know much about love. At least not much about the sexual kind of love. I have a lot of love in me. Love for my friends, my family, my environment, … But I know nothing about the love between a boy and a girl. I just know it´s complicated. I know this because I know nothing about it just because it´s complicated. I never kissed a girl. Some blue days I think I never will. There are girls I think are really beautiful and very nice. Theres one. I know I can never kiss her, be in love with her. It´s complicated. She is a friend of mine. She´s young but she looks much older as she is and she is really beautiful. I thought I had no feelings for her in that sexual love way but tonight I dreamed of her and it made me think. I dreamed I met her and I wanted to give her two kisses one on each cheek. So I gave her a kiss on her right cheek. The situation seemed strange. When I wanted to give her a kiss on the left cheek she turned her head and kissed me on the mouth. I guess that dream isn´t that special, but before this dream I hadn´t any dream for some time and it felt so real. I don´t even know why I write this text. It just feels like this dream has a meaning I can´t get, and I don´t mean something like she wants to be with me. I mean something more abstract. I can feel it but I can´t catch it. It´s out of my range.

Author's Note

This is very personal. It might not be nice to read. It´s just thinking in words. Sharing thoughts.

Feel free to say whatever you think when you read this.