I Wonder...

Gifts of love...

I wonder...

At first I handed you a yellow rose letting you know
that you were my best friend till the end,

I wonder what you thought that rose meant?

Then as time went forward that rose color turned
into a deep crimson red as my heart felt our one time
friendship turn into a bleeding love,

As this love affair grew into something that everyone
desires, I gave you a engagement ring because I knew
that I couldn't live without you,

I wonder what you thought that ring meant?

A hop and skip later I asked for your hand in marriage
and gave you a one of a kind ring that was symbolic of
how I felt about you,

With love comes marriage and a baby or in our case
two in the carriage,

I wounder what you thought our kids meant?

Well just to be clear these gifts were completely out
of 100% love for you, I don't understand you, why would
you do what you did to me and the kids?

I wonder what you think marriage means?

We are obviously not on the same page and I am
sad to say " I don't think we ever were "
but I know for sure that I loved you with ALL of my
heart and will till the day I die,

Have a blessed life my friend, my wife, my ex,
I only pray for the best for you and me and together
we weren't meant to be,

I wonder did you ever love me?

Author's Note

GOD IS GOOD!

Reviews

[Anonymous]

I really love this...it's hard to understand how someone you love so deeply can just toss aside what you have and you truly wonder if they ever did love you or if it's been in your head all this time. Wonderfully written and oozing bittersweet emotion.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind review, b-blessed.

[wordman]

a sad situation james,love is like the wind,it blows in all directions

[Jamestown]

Well said Wordman:) Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[wordman]

yeah, the devil blesses me daily by kicking my butt!

[Jamestown]

I can relate for sure!

[emmajoy]

Love has a way of taking one to the highest and most beautiful place in the universe. Losing that place can hurt to the end of time.

Your pain darts from the screen! Your words are bitter painful. You've somehow written chapters by way of short stanzas, displaying emotions simmering, boiling then.. cooling to ice.berg numbness. And yet - you forgive, wish well.. and still wonder. That's courage start to finish.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind review, b-blessed!

[B]

Really cool
Sometimes we fall for the wrong one
I love your use of a rose changing color
Living and dying through it
and your kind release and respect for a love you held dear

how noble can you be ??

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and your kind review, b-blessed!

[free will]

That made me feel really sad..but I like how there is best wishes even through hurt. I enjoy your writimg James. Thank you

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Pushkar Prabhat]

powerful and sad tale of love..........
we hate them......yet over love makes us forgive them........while still wondering if they really ever loved us............
beautiful poem!!
i loved it!!!
:)

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Zac]

I Like the imagery portrayed hope to read more soon.

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[AaronFreitas]

Powerful words James... I loved the honesty. I can definitely relate with the situation and I've been thinking of doing a write similar just haven't put together the strength to go there mentally. Awesome words I am glad you shared :)

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[Jordan]

Stop making me feel!
Apathy is hard to maintain when I read your stuff, man. I've read hearts on a page from other people but there's something about yours that kicks me right in the emotional balls...anyways.

It makes me wonder if there really is a woman that's inspiring all of this or if you're just great at synthesizing raw emotions.

[Jamestown]

You think you got kicked in the balls, lol!
Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!

[sinNsincerity]

True sadness bro...
Great write!

[Jamestown]

Thanks for checking it out and b-blessed!