Stargazing

An original I wrote, thank you for reading

I have always wanted to go stargazing
To look up and see the remote past blazing
To be bathed in the light of distant yearnings
To forget and wash away inner churnings

I have always wanted to fly deep in love
To find a nebula of kisses above
To be in heaven, immersed in x-ray sight
To float in rapture, the distant future bright

I have never wanted to be so heartsick
To be captured in space-time's quicksand fabric
To sink in the gravity of your gorgeous gaze
To be lost in your universe, your mind, your maze

I have never wanted to tread the sun's surface
To plummet towards a star; no control, no purchase
To melt in the solar flares of your subtle smiles
To burn in empathic sorrow for your trials

I have always wanted to go stargazing
But now to stay grounded, safe from soul razing
To gaze from afar upon cosmic wonders
To count the stars and drift towards wishless slumbers