I am

I am

A Poem by J.A.N

I am the daughter

you left behind

countless times


I am the sister

you left bruised

in hallways of

our childhood



I am the twice shy lover

you left behind

wrapped in sheets

sadly dissatisfied



I am -

am I to blame

my head down in shame

of what's been done


did I cause the fights

the allegations and

the times, I felt alone

and you were nowhere

to be found, throwing

stones and thinking twice


while you were busy,

missing out on kissing

scraped knees, I watched

you sip a bottle of Jack

or is that Hennessy

I see, you see I'm

afraid to ask Daddy

now, please don't leave


while you were teasing

missing out on tying

ribbons in my hair and

playing dress up, I watched

you point and laugh,

I've got a stain of pudding

on my pants, don't be stupid

now, please don't leave


while you were cheating

missing out on loving

calling me baby, I watched

you flirting, groping, wanting

and I stayed sane, didn't say

a thing but it's degrading

now, please don't leave


my heart is broken

my head is heavy,

my hands are empty

and I feel, you see  

you left me behind

and I've never felt so alone







© 2011 J.A.N

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this was sad and I loved the transition from a mothers abandonment to that of a lovers makes the reader think, hope my interpretation wasn't wrong but its what I got from the poem

Posted 12 Years Ago

This is really powerful. I really like this write.

Posted 12 Years Ago

In the beginning I thought this was about some family situation or soemthing but then at the end I got a lover's sense. I'm not sure. But I still liked the imagery and emotion of this write.

Posted 12 Years Ago

This is great.... I love it.

Posted 12 Years Ago

wonderful, you're truly an amazing writer.

Posted 12 Years Ago

This is such a powerful piece of writing!
It flows so nicely, especially the beginning.
Great write, really.

Posted 12 Years Ago

Definitely one of my favorites by you.... great work

Posted 12 Years Ago

wow...that poem is uh-mazing

Posted 12 Years Ago

Don't change a thing! this is gripping from start to finish! You take us on a journey through your emotions. a painful journey which I am sure is shared by many. It evokes wthin me that lion within, that of protector of the princess that is in the heart of every true man.

Posted 12 Years Ago

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Added on February 3, 2011
Last Updated on February 8, 2011



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