MY Life

A Story by John

A free writing of individual feelings.

I've felt beaten, battered, and bruised by life. I've been let down, betrayed by others, and myself. I've made terrible mistakes both personally and judicially. All of this has been a culmination, that nobody could understand. Nobody could feel how I've felt, seen what I've seen, or know what I've known... because it's mine. It's my experience, my burden. Many times I feel like I have nothing left to give, nothing more I need to prove to myself. Just close my eyes, and let it all go............. But my eyes open, and there always is a beating drum in the back of my mind, "This is your life, this is your situation. This is YOUR struggle." I breath in, sucking the air in around me. I feel its burn, its weight on my lungs, the oxygen course through my veins. "I'm still here, despite all of that. Get up.... Get up!" I may have lost much, but not myself. This life hasn't beat me yet.