A Poem by Kari Kush

It's self destruct 
Self abuse 
I kiss him while he kisses you 
I lay across his f*****g bed 
knowing this is where you stay 
I f**k him raw 
He moans my name with your image in his head 
I know it's you 
It's not me 
He always stares but only through me 
Brown big eyes still feeds me lies 
and I inhale them to survive 
I know it's not truth the things he says 
but whatever gets me in his bed 
whatever gets me in his arms 
so I can feel him before he leaves 
before he realizes I'm not what he needs 
before he says I was a mistake 
and says to you "please whatever it takes" 
It's like suicide what I do 
I watch him love you 
it's self destruct 
Self abuse 
Cause I crave him knowing he craves you 

© 2016 Kari Kush

Author's Note

Kari Kush
fix grammar problems please

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I love the power in your words, to fix some grammatical issues there would be a comma before the word but in the 10th stanza

personally i never worry about my grammar too much, I love the raw emotion presented in the poem

Posted 3 Years Ago

Wow, that was hard to read --- but in the good way because it spoke to me. This is very real and so honest. I love that you didn't hold back for the sake of vanity or pride, but rather put it all out there exactly as it is from your perspective. Structurally, it might need some work, but I'm no expert -- The structure didn't diminish the message of the poem and that's what matters :)

Posted 3 Years Ago

Wow! That's raw. I like it because it's something that so many face in friendships and relationships.

Posted 3 Years Ago

1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

I loved this poem. Honest and realistic poetry. My favorite kind.
"It's like suicide what I do
I watch him love you
it's self destruct
Self abuse
Cause I crave him knowing he craves you "
The above lines. So good and so real. Thank you Kari for sharing the amazing poetry.

Posted 3 Years Ago

Very good, you got the emotions across really well. Beautifully written, really. ^^

Posted 3 Years Ago

Nice and really painful aiiiii I could feel it.

Posted 3 Years Ago

we're sexual beings before anything else. don't beat yourself up over it. the self destruct self harm angle is just a social construct. let that s**t go.

Posted 3 Years Ago

The Twin Arenas

3 Years Ago

"self destruct" should probably be self-destruction, although "it's ON self-destruct" kind of works.
Lost Boy

playing three card monte
with a loaded deck
& the bartender's girlfriend
won't leave me alone
so I'm getting
my drinks for free

you see me
and in your
mother's womb
sense my damage

& in these sweltering
endless nights
we sweat through
the sheets
as you try to make up
for all the fucked up things
that have happened
in my life

& in the morning
I will kiss you
thank you for the memory
& leave
too damaged
to share myself
with anyone

this is why....

Posted 3 Years Ago

Kari Kush

3 Years Ago

That was great but what is why?
Kari Kush

3 Years Ago

u answered a question but questions
terry smith

3 Years Ago

because damaged people don't know how to share themselves

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8 Reviews
Added on July 20, 2016
Last Updated on July 20, 2016


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