I've Been Robbed

I suck a relationships.

Let’s be honest here.

I’m terrified

I mean I don’t know the first thing about a physical relationship

Touch

What is it to be able to touch the ones you love?

I’ve never really known

 

I guess it feels like I’ve been jipped

Robbed of experiences because the ones I’ve got

Are all cradled around a phone and a deep voice on the other end

That didn’t used to be so deep, in fact I remember hearing his voice crack

And squeak, because we were only fourteen then

 

I mean I guess I tried for a little while to be physical

But I was just awkward and I went back to what I knew

I know distance.

I’m good at it

I mean I know what to do, what not to do

 

But now there is you

You’re here, we can hang out and make out

And I’m horrified

Because I don’t know how to start over

Or let things just take there course

 

I do know one thing

You’re incredibly cute

And really nice

And I’m a little too used to being fucked over on the first date

To have such a nice and cute guy like you stick around for a second

And even a third.

 

It’s a shame you won’t have a car forever

I could go with you anywhere

Everywhere

Laying in your arms and kicking a*s at video games

 

Looking into your eyes.

I guess I’m pretty sure they are blue by this point

I hope I can see you again soon

I guess that’s all I wanted to say

 

Eventually I’ll know my way around your lips.

Author's Note

everything here is intentional.