Nostalgia

I'm not a man of assumption

As I reached my redemption

Tired, broken and alone

I see horizon of every dawn 

But an answer mystique remains

What if this is all one gains

What if there's no more

Un-shut is the half-open door

And a heavy breath follows sighs

Hope of tomorrow slowly dies

As I drown in heartache and the loss of god

wandering and wandering to reveal the fraud

I seek an answer from her

Even if she's not there

Even if it was wrong

Silence follows a song

Everyone else found place to bury their dead dreams

'Beside the lake beneath the moon in the deep trees'

Oh I want to be there, I want us to be there

Casting our worries into the air

Or simply run away, simply to forget

Kisses I saved for her, which now I regret

Selective amnesia helps no more

The image is behind each opened door

Everything now is a reminder of her

Not as beautiful, not as fair

All beauty around is her defaced clone

Nostalgia awakes me until the dawn

Homelessness, solitude and insomnia

Heartache, pride and nostalgia

Horizon open before my eyes

Nostalgia for what I never had... beautiful lies

Author's Note

Reviews are welcomed

Reviews

[Blue Moon Ice Cream]

"What if this is all one gains / What if there's no more." I love the way that you expressed this because I think it must be a fear that nags at all of us. I had never thought about burying dead dreams before, but that's a wonderful line; just like people, we have to mourn them and put them to rest. And the last line, "nostalgia for what I never had," caught my attention most of all; it's something I can definitely relate to at the moment.

[Janna Nicole]

"And a heavy breath follows sighs
Hope of tomorrow slowly dies
As I drown in heartache and the loss of god
wandering and wandering to reveal the fraud"

I really like this stanza. It says so much more than just the words that are there. I feel like there is a whole other story waiting to be told behind those lines.

[Coyote Poetry]

"Everyone else found place to bury their dead dreams
'Beside the lake beneath the moon in the deep trees'
Oh I want to be there, I want us to be there
Casting our worries into the air"
I like the complete poem. The above lines are my favorite. Beautiful lies can lead us to good places that can turn cold very quickly. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[M.Kilani]

Thank you my friend, glad you like those lines, and yes, beautiful lies are heartache once the truth is revealed.
Thanks again,
Mohammad.

[TL Boehm]

the impassible distance between reality and what we thought we had. Happens more than many of us would care to 'fess up to. A lovely lonely poem

[M.Kilani]

Thank you for the review, but I believe too much reality kills the spirit, while too much fantasy is harmful, the absence of one is sad, life is a comedy for he who thinks and a tragedy for he who feels!
Thanks again,
Mohammad.

[The Creation]

great write! very depressing. just my style.

[M.Kilani]

Thank you very much, I'm glad you found the style you like in my poem.

[Talal Hussain]

Excellent composition...your writing has a great impact on mind and soul.

[M.Kilani]

Thank you for the review Talal, I'm glad you find my writing so,
Regards,
Mohammad.

[Just Kim]

Your third stanza brought me inward to feel the heartbreak,
Your last stanza, is just so powerful.
Enjoyed

[M.Kilani]

Apologies for the heartache and many thanks for the review, I'm glad you enjoyed it,
Warm regards,
Mohammad.

[Namaa Hammond]

Very heartbreaking dude but profound and rich, a metaphorical genius!

[M.Kilani]

Finally a review from you!! Thanks dude I'm glad you think so... and yeah it is heartbreaking... but this is life :P