Mistakes.

We cannot run from our choices. Or the demons they may create.

I regret, that which i have chosen.
The hate i have brought to the

Table and released to those present.

I breed anger and distain, I

push those who have loved me

To the edge of their standing.

 

I make mistakes, physically aswell

As verbally, i cause the spite,

Inspite of my love for those i

Present with reason to leave.

Afterevery departure, that space they

Took up in my heart never re-fills.

 

It remains empty beside the

Hate i have for myself.

I am the reason, I am the

Mistake they make, that they always

Fix in the end.

I am the complication they must remove.

 

Like a cancer on their thoughts, I sit ,

As part of them until they cleanse

Themselves of my poison.

I always wish to stay, i long for

That moment we resolve the crack,

The time from now that we settle.

 

To be back where we belong.

In the sun, with the smile.

I despise that they leave, why

They leave, and how they leave.

With the thought that i deserve it,

Even if i do in the end.

Reviews

[DarkRainbowPie]

Very emotional poem, so full of negativity. You've really made apparent your state of mind when all this works its way into your thought process. Your poem also makes me think you're taking too much blame upon yourself though; ''I am the complication they must remove.'' Know that you aren't, and that if you ever are removed, it's out of foolish actions on the other parties behalf. Wrongs can be righted, the way to do that is not by pushing people away, and if people don't know that, they're far from mature. Love you Waffle

[Firefly]

Thank you Little Mayo

[Saint No-One]

This is heartbreaking, the juxtaposition of wanting unconditional companionship, yet forcing those who care away. This captures so well the emotion of willing self sabotage. I particularly enjoy the line "cause the spite, / inspite of my love."

[Firefly]

it is indeed heartbreaking, but thank you very much.

[InsanityWriter]

This is powerful and chock full of complicated feelings that you have managed to place before and convey to us quite plainly. Excellently done my friend... ;)
You are no mistake... Because there's no mistaking this sort of perfection. (:

[Firefly]

thank you so much! that means the world to me :D