I have to choose

this is based on my great grandmother, a loving woman who i always say is a girl from our generation in a different time period. our entire family loves her

I love you, I hate you

god I don't know

you f**k up my mind and tear me apart

then you say your sorry and hope I forgive you

You love me, you hate me

whenever I try to leave

you grab me and hurt me until I promise to stay

This isn't working like we planned

we wanted a family and a happy home

our kids are watching us

you getting drunk and cheating on me

while I work my a*s off

That's it, I'm leaving, don't try to stop me

I'm sending our son to a relative of mine

while I send the girls to their aunt.

Do whatever you want, you can't stop me

I don't give a f*****g damn what our neighbors say

you don't control me, I'm not your puppet

I thought I loved you but I had to choose

To deal with all this s**t or to have peace 

it was hard to choose,

but I made my decision now.

It will be hard for me and the kids now,

but I don't want them to see more of this

Good-bye, farewell,

I thought you loved me

but there's no point to keep up this charade

I have now chosen the path I will walk,

a path to a better life for all of us...........

Author's Note

Please give your reviews, I would gladly appreciate it

Reviews

[Hello, Goodbye]

yes.. definitely the conflicting feelings is universal.. and letting go/acceptance is a difficult notion to warm up to..

[Raven Starhawk]

The pieces to this puzzle bring forth a picture I clearly recognize and understand.

[Daytonight]

Well done. Charged with a lot of emotion. So glad she had the courage to break free...so many don't. Keep on penning.

[brenda]

this is awesome tooo kepp writing you are a great at uit !!:)

[Becky C Strukamp]

Emotionally packed poem, with confusion, yet clarity as to what must be done, a love gone wrong, trust turning to lies, decision being made for the sake of sanity. You conveyed a strong message and it came out clearly.

Well concieved writing. I liked it. I can certainly relate to it from past experiences. I liked it.

[nevermindfan1991]

This was very emotionally dense poem, I was captivated by it from the beginning. Very straightforward, not hidden by metaphors or similes. You can feel the anger, contempt in this. Great job.

[~DeathByButterflies~]

Great poem. Had a little confusion when reading, "It was hard to chose", did you mean choose? The beginning really sets the whole poem into motion, and your lines "god i don't know you/ you f**k up my mind and tear me apart" really add emotion to this piece.