Understanding

Understanding

A Poem by LatoyaEvans
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This poem is a product of a relation that was born out of chaos and strength.

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Understanding

Latoya Evans

January 27, 2015

 

Speaking words to you have become a chore,

I just can’t do it anymore.

You transform depth and wholeness into a phantom;

an apparition, without name and form -

I become forlorn

In me is the capacity to construct words into reality

Give an idea life or new life to an old idea that can be reborn

With you abortion seems like the only action to take

Then you and I can resume our titles as lovers, and mates

This weariness of words is too heavy to bear

to speak words to you in a room

when only the walls will hear, fills me with despair.

It seems unending, unyielding

It is frustrating, angering

Please let’s just stop I want to go to the refuge of my expanded mind that I call home

And then you text me on the phone.

Another round of not understanding, I want a Knock Out

Maybe some sense will get in then, but its wishful thinking

I know this now.

I know how?

Why three long years of the same thing,

Who is wrong?

Who is right?

Who’s not listening?

I don’t want to listen anymore

I don’t want you to listen to me

What I want, what I really want is a little bit of understanding!

Listening is throwing a thin blanket on a sleeping child; in a cold room,

On account of a window being open.

Understanding is closing the window before the child goes in the room to rest

It’s knowing with the aid of life experiences and a bit of communion.

You can’t commune, your way shows you there are no equal…to you

You are in the gift, the wrapping paper, the receipt, and the salesperson.

Another sequel to be installed in the infamous play of us,

So hard to discuss.

How can someone be right and wrong at the same time?

Maybe my understanding is erroneous?

Maybe he’s been right all this time?

Maybe I’m the reason this relationship has turned itself and devoured the occupants?

Oh, how Carnivorous!

But he knows all, He does not have to question.

He stands so firm, sessile even.

He only moves in unison with me in the evening…in the dark.

You’d go blind trying to find the spark.

Passionless, action less he’s all talk nothing else

His heart; he put in is head, and he nailed his brain to shelf

I know that’s not where it really is

But you’d think so if you even saw us kiss

Like two opposing magnets joined together forcefully trying to be together.

Be together…never.

All the work, all the reading, all the planning

All for naught because two people could not understand, understanding.

It all seems so demanding

Notwithstanding

Arrogant and Belligerent

But I have an idea,

I know he will not want to hear but here it goes anyway:

Let’s play

Let’s have a play date where we can just enjoy one another

No titles, no mate, no lover just you and I

Laughing, joking, smiling

Winning prizes, no disguises, no fronts

 No pick me up, just fun

We can hide, glide, and slide in the park

We can play Red Light, Green Light, but you have to stand on the mark

We can race, we can skate

We can have child-like glee reflective of a time when it was OK to be you and

It was okay to be me.

Happy, Happy like a baby that just learned to independently stand

Because happiness we both know and we both understand.

 

 

 

 

© 2015 LatoyaEvans


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LatoyaEvans

Brooklyn, NY



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I am a proud single mother of three daring children. They have taught and molded me as I have them. They inspired me to rise above all challenges and adversities. My heart belongs to them and through.. more..

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