What I Wanted, You Always Had

I want to feel something,
Something more than the nothing that's eating me alive.
I want nothing but to be revived.
I want to be something,
Something more than the nothing I am now.
I want to have someone.
Someone who won't leave.
I want to be left  alone.
I want to believe you'll tell me the truth,
Even though I'm believing your lies
I want to see.
I want to see life through your eyes.
I don't want you to show me.
I want to be real.
Everything here is so fake.
I want to see that this isn't a mistake.
I want to reach out for the hand that's pulling away
I want to believe you when you tell me its okay.
I want to pull the knife from my back
While your holding your gun to my head.
I'll make the last move.
I'm already dead.
Believe me
You'll never see me again.
I want you to be the one
Who wants to feel.

Reviews

[Arabdha]

this one leaves me sad..i can relate to it..i'm sure everyone has felt like this at some point or the other..and sometimes its OKAY to feel this way..great write..

[Gone.]

Aww You made me cry...... I am here for you if you need me :)

[trainwreck]

Great job! I love the whole thing, as usual, but my favorite line is:
"Something more than the nothing that's eating me alive."
This almost sounds like a tribute to the Flyleaf songs This Close and/or Chasm.

[fatalsymphonies]

Don't we all? This provokes desire and at the same time begs for that special person. This is nice.

[JanuaryDreamer♥]

very nice poem :)

[Peter Joseph Swanson]

Wonderful poem!