It's a Love-Hate Relationship

It's a Love-Hate Relationship

A Poem by Blue Belle
"

I like that Olanzapine is working for me, but I also wish it didn't.

"

Olanzapine runs through my neurons
Relieving anxiety and obsessiveness.

Her ways are pleasing

As well as disagreeable.

 

She helps me eat, 
Although I would rather not.
Who am I
Without restricting and weighing?

 

She brings happiness,
But I would rather be depressed.
Who am I
Without feeling pessimism?

 

She pushes uneasiness away,
Although I would rather carry.
Who am I 
Without distress?

 

It’s a love/hate relationship.

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© 2013 Blue Belle


Author's Note

Blue Belle
Hope you enjoyed the reading. Any and all criticism is appreciated. Take Care! Stay Strong! :)

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As someone struggling with an undiagnosed emotional order, along with extreme anxiety, and strongly considering beginning therapy soon- I really can relate to the struggles of wondering who you would be without your symptoms. The worry crosses my mind so very often, because it has just become my Identity to those around me, it seems sometimes... You are going to be an absolutely wonderful psychologist- all of your experience will give you the empathy needed for people to feel like they can open up to you!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blue Belle

10 Years Ago

Thank you so much for your amazing comment! :)
LaVonneTheLovely

10 Years Ago

Anytime!



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As someone struggling with an undiagnosed emotional order, along with extreme anxiety, and strongly considering beginning therapy soon- I really can relate to the struggles of wondering who you would be without your symptoms. The worry crosses my mind so very often, because it has just become my Identity to those around me, it seems sometimes... You are going to be an absolutely wonderful psychologist- all of your experience will give you the empathy needed for people to feel like they can open up to you!

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blue Belle

10 Years Ago

Thank you so much for your amazing comment! :)
LaVonneTheLovely

10 Years Ago

Anytime!
Another good one, you capture the psychological aspects very well. You have earned a follow on tumblr :P

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blue Belle

10 Years Ago

Thanks...I don't actually get on tumblr much though, maybe I should.
*Nods* I felt this way when I was first put on Lithium. The balancing act was delicate but noticeable. I was so used to depression, anxiety, the voices in my head telling me what to do. It really is a love/hate relationship. I love the personification of the drug. Interesting that it is female. I've always sensed that Lithium is masculine. Anyway... excellent flow in this questioning piece.

Posted 10 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Blue Belle

10 Years Ago

Thank you very much! :)

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Added on May 4, 2013
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Tags: mental health, mental illness, mental disorder, depression, anxiety, self-harm, cutting, medicine
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Blue Belle
Blue Belle

Elmira, NY



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I am twenty-nine years old. I'm dealing with a mood disorder/depression, anxiety, an eating disorder, borderline personality disorder, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts. I love writing. and most of my .. more..

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