Self-confessed

Self-confessed

A Poem by Laura Kate

I undressed myself 
the time had come
to stand in front of the mirror
and confess it all - 

The late bloomer
I held my breasts 
'I used to think there wasn't enough of you!' 

I smiled
 swirled my hands up into the air
swivelled up on to my toes and
twisted my hips towards the glass

... 'you'

eyebrows raised,
you know who I'm talking to

'you always got all the attention...
from all the wrong people 
sometimes I hated you for that'.

I dived my arms to the floor and my hips followed
  legs crossed,
I rested my chin on my knees
and smiled into my eyes 
the eyes
of my mother
of my grandmothers
of all mothers before me ...

thank you.

I turned my cheek to the scarring on one side
'I didn't recognise myself for some time,
because to you. 
I blamed you for ruining my graduation'
the first generation of women in my family
to have one.

I sat back, looked down to the 'chunky' thighs,
as they've been known since I was a baby.
'I never could get rid of you!' I laughed. 
'No matter how hard I tried...'

but I wouldn't want to, now.
I'll keep all my lumps and bumps,
and scars.

The ones that got me through school, 
graduation
funerals
weddings
tears
travels
and laughter.
The ones of wisdom shared from all women's bodies before me

and the wisdom of the men in my life,
who always told me
not to listen to those nasty words
the ones they say

'sticks and stones may break my bones
but words will never harm me'

but they never knew
of the words
I'd tell myself

and now, I've said it all.

© 2021 Laura Kate


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Quite a good piece...love the layout of this. It has me on the floor with my legs crossed...
I relate to this because I have always been really self-conscious about my looks.
Why would a girl want to go out with me? And even deep into a relationship...someone would say "I love you" and my response would be "why?"
I didn't go to the extend of putting covers over the mirrors...but never
liked how I looked...
I guess we all feel there is some certain visage we have to live up to...but damn it, no.
We need to just be ourselves...and not only give ourselves a break, but love ourselves as well.
You got me going with this one, Laura,
j.

Posted 5 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Laura Kate

5 Months Ago

I can definitely relate to you here, Jacob. I think most people would change something about themsel.. read more



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we finally realize that we wont ever be the model in Cosmo looking elsewhere; in our body suit and knee length skirt. in fact, we look closer to all the others at Walmart in our proprietary spandex and our topic, lettered sweatshirts... body image is the cruel, dancing ghost that thumbs itself through the chapters of our metamorphosis /lol

There is no cure and no mythology for the poem you've wrote so beautifully.....dana

Posted 3 Months Ago


Being at the cafe for 6 years, I've read at least a million poems about self-esteem & this is the only one I've ever really LOVED! Sometimes it feels to me like poems bemoaning body image are too far one way or too far the other, but like Goldilocks, I finally found the perfect bowl of porridge right here. This is the exact battle most of us have waged, shown in a fresh way with unique wording, totally relatable, showing the ups and the downs. This is the total package of what it's like to nurture/fight one's self image (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 4 Months Ago


The greatest wisdom learn. To like ourselves. I loved the poem and the honest thoughts dear LouBelle. I believe our scars, womanly curves. Artwork. Thank you for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

Posted 5 Months Ago


Quite a good piece...love the layout of this. It has me on the floor with my legs crossed...
I relate to this because I have always been really self-conscious about my looks.
Why would a girl want to go out with me? And even deep into a relationship...someone would say "I love you" and my response would be "why?"
I didn't go to the extend of putting covers over the mirrors...but never
liked how I looked...
I guess we all feel there is some certain visage we have to live up to...but damn it, no.
We need to just be ourselves...and not only give ourselves a break, but love ourselves as well.
You got me going with this one, Laura,
j.

Posted 5 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Laura Kate

5 Months Ago

I can definitely relate to you here, Jacob. I think most people would change something about themsel.. read more
This is an emotional read here, nicely presented

Posted 5 Months Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Laura Kate

5 Months Ago

Thank you for reading, Just Kim, and for sharing your thoughts.

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Added on January 27, 2021
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Tags: women, identity, love, bodies, image, body image, family wisdom

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Laura Kate
Laura Kate

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