You, My Addiction

A poem about drug addiction...

I sit alone,

In the dark of my room
Thinking about things,
Thinking about you 

 

It's been two years,

Two years since

I left you

It took a lot of effort

But I got over you

 

You are still so alluring,

So seductive,

So tempting

 

I think about it.

You.

Just one more time,

And then I'll forget

That's all I need

"Thats all" I tell you

 

But you,

You just laugh

You know this is untrue

You know that it will be

Only a matter of time,

Before I come back to you

 

I think about the times,

That I spent with you

And I feel a smile

Find its way acrossed by face 

 

But then a feeling

Of shame

Replaces my game

And I frown,

As a tear of regret

Glazes my eyes 

 

 What would they say?

What would they think?

How long could I go

Without you being noticed? 

 

 Just one hit,

Thats all I want

I need it,

I breath it,

Just one,

Thats it

 

I give into my need,

I meet you again,

I feel the sudden rush,

Take a deep breath,

And my head spins a bit 

 

The release is close

To immidiate

All of my pain

Is numbed,

And my mind is

Fully sated

 

Oh, it's such a wonderful

Feeling

Just once won't be enough 

 

 Now I'm so lost,

I feel so alone,

You have taken back control

And I am so far gone

 

How do I tell someone?

They would be so mad

How can one stupid mistake

Turn into such an Affliction? 

 

I need so much help,

I have to stop with you,

I can't deal with all this s**t,

And deal with you, too

 

I must get my life back,

I will take it if I must 

 

 But I will get my life back,

Just way,

You'll see,

I just hope I haven't lost my friends trust...

Reviews

[chandlerl]

it says its a ch. what book?
oh is this your book of poems about drug addiction?
i should read that...
Wow, i've felt like this so many times it feels like one will be enough. Ah, the things we tell ourselves for one more hit. Great write, you hit the nail on the head wit that one...the nail on the head thing sounds weird i'll think of a better analogy and get back to you XD

[LostandAlone]

I'm very OCD so all of my stuff has to be very organized, so I have different "books" of different types of poetry... Yeah..
Yeah, me too.. Yeah, I know. Thanks a lot. Haha, okay.

[chandlerl]

u and chance do the same thing...it funny XD...yea...yea...yea ok...yea ...u to...XDDDD

[LostandAlone]

Haha, yeah.. Chance is dorkier than me though. :P

[chandlerl]

i...i believe you XDDD

[LostandAlone]

Haha :P

[xXChanceXx]

You two are going to both beat the addictions, and everything else together, and you'll both be okay. I looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove you two. :D

[LostandAlone]

Yeah, we are.. Haha, we looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove you too. :D

[xXChanceXx]

Yay!! :D

[LostandAlone]

Wow...

[xXChanceXx]

What?!

[LostandAlone]

Your such a girl..

[xXChanceXx]

I am not! I'm a guy!! I have PROOF!!

[LostandAlone]

Are you suuuuuuuure your a guy?

[xXChanceXx]

YES I AM

[LostandAlone]

Are you completely sure that you are a guy?

[xXChanceXx]

YES I AM

[Katherine S.]

It's a very good poem, very relatable. We can beat our addictions together.

[LostandAlone]

Thanks. Yeah.. Yeah, we will.