Pills

Pills

A Poem by Light

I do know what it is like
To feel pain beyond belief
To be crying at the end of the night
Because of another day without relief
To be told you are broken
And be pumped full of pills
As if they could "fix" you
By taking away your will
To be called spaz, retard,
F****t, gay
Weak, worthless
Believing it more every day
To have been told I'm unwanted!
"No one wants you" they'd say
Always followed by that common phrase
"Just go away"
"Just kill yourself"
Yeah, they'd go that far
To say all those words
To this day, I still feel them like a scar
And that was just in sixth grade!
How could it compare?
To six more years of being picked last
And left to pretend I didn't care
I've accepted I wont be loved
I've accepted I wont ever be protected
But why does that mean
Every day is so dreaded?
I had to repair myself!
No one came to my side!
No one called to comfort me
Any of the nights I cried!
Juggling depression, paranoia, ADHD
Counting all of the things I will never be
Beautiful, happy, successful, and together
Together... with someone I can trust forever.
But still, each night. I will eventually fall asleep
Something keeping me afloat 
In this tidal wave of defeat.
What? A hope?
For a person who will love?
I doubt it, who would come down from above
For me? I'm just a wrong answer
A screw up, a mistake.
How? When all you could know
are these pills I am forced to take.

© 2016 Light


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Oh, such a feeling of unwanted one...but really you should not think that nobody would be sitting beside you. There's a planned soulmate for everyone of us. Maybe this is not the right time. Perseverance is a great arm. Do not let those pills break your chance...and hope.

Sad but nicely done.


Posted 8 Years Ago


Light

8 Years Ago

Truth is, I am an unwanted one
I was always met with annoyed glances and shunned
All fro.. read more
one sky

8 Years Ago

I've been there. I have tried so many ways of seeking for someone to talk to. Even in here. Some tre.. read more
You're not alone hun, trust in that.
I've been there, I've been where you are. And you know what, someone will come and wrap their arms around you one day, and love you.
If you ever need a friend, feel free to message me.
A very moving, and well penned write
-Jade

Posted 8 Years Ago



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Added on June 21, 2013
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Tags: Depression, attention deficit hyperactive di, depressed, pills, pill, ADHD, paranoia, ADD, bullied, victim, drugs, medication, isolated, sad, loveless, alone

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