Suicidal Debate

Suicide debate with myself. It helps more than anything else to get it out.

I've spent too much energy on this fight

At this point, I can no longer see light

I wanna end it so bad, this cursed life

So I can escape this trap of endless strife

And I'm sitting here staring at a knife

Wishing one cut could end this life

One cut. Like the one you ran through my heart

And you say you feel pain? I wanna make you start!

By ending my life, and screaming that it is your fault

You made my mind to flips, twists, and somersaults

But I'm guessing you don't care for that neither

So I'm sitting here with these two options: Either

Kill myself now and join those up in the clouds

Pray that makes you feel the pain in which I drowned

Or live on in this day to day hell

Being tortured by you, always kicking after I fell

Well which one would you choose? It's getting easier all the time

To kill myself would free me from this hellish state of mind

To stay on earth

It's like a curse

And it gets worse all the time

Now I feel like I'm running out of words to rhyme!

And when that happens, no more ways to vent!

My mind will be gone, way too far bent

To try and repair, its a nightmare, and I cant rest

It's a poison to love the one making your life such a mess

And that poison, if you watch, is getting closer to my heart

Pretty soon, there will be nothing to restart

But honestly? I don't want it to

It'd be so blissful just to die because you

Drove me insane

At this point, there is no one else to blame~

So why don't you see? There's nothing you can do that's worse

Then leave me here, dying on the ground while I curse

At your name, but I can't because I love it

And then you saw the damage, asked "how could I have done it?"

COME ON! I think you should know

You ripped my heart out twice, I've never felt so low

Your face once resembled so much love it glowed

Now it's full of fears and my tears because it's so cold

Please, tell me, how could you do this to me?

Force me into this catastrophe

What is it you're after, can't I know?

Is it just to force me down for your sick show?

Perhaps my screams of pain?

My mind fading away?

Why are you dragging me through this EVERY SINGLE DAY?

I wanna scream "HEY!

How can you live with yourself today?

Knowing you killed me on the inside in every way!"