I Messed Up

F**k! I guess I really did mess up this time!

I couldn't leave it alone, and trust it would be fine

Nope! I had to go and shout out how I'm feeling

And now I'm screaming so loud, with my wrist bleeding!

Its over! There isn't any hope for me left

I can't believe it, what I just confessed!

This new feeling inside is killing me

Whats wrong with me? Do I have some mental deficiency?

I mean, AHHH! I TRUSTED MYSELF ONE TIME!

And now it feels like happiness will never be mine!

That's it! I've had it! No more of this

Put a gun to my head and shoot, PLEASE DON'T MISS

I've cut myself far too many times

I cannot keep writing the same stupid lines!

This hell is flowing from me, no way it'll stop

I need to end this now, leave my body to drop

So its over! With no hope to recover!

Everyone eventually moves on to find another to call their lover

AHH! My heart is being dangled

By a string, supporting my entire mangled

Body, mind and soul, I've been crushed, I need help!

I CAN'T DEAL WITH ALL THIS PAIN THAT HAS BEEN DEALT

F**k, my heart just got worse

It dropped again, right while I am writing this verse

And it hurts!

It's excruciatingly painful!

And now I suddenly feel so very shameful

Because I'm in the wrong this time

The blame, this hell, IT'S ALL MINE!

God damn, my friends! Why haven't you texted me back?

Its been 30 minuets, where the f**k are you at?

I need you! Right here and now, it's brutal!

This weight in me, to fight it is futile!

HELP! HELP ME NOW!

Before it's too late and I drown

In this hell I'm stuck in

I'm starting to think it will be my coffin

Oh god, it is still getting worse

I can feel it in me, this curse

To want to jump up and scream F**K YOU UNIVERSE!

You caused me all of my pain!

Gave me everything I wanted and then threw it away!

F**k! I though I was bad before this

But now I think I will go psychotic

I can't deal with this stress

My head is a mess

And it feels permanent this time

Because the screams never rest!

So I'm done

Bye, see you all later

I am moving on to something Lesser or greater

I'm sorry to all my family and friends

But this pain seems like it will never mend

Maybe I will be watching over you soon

Oh well, goodbye

click click boom.

Reviews

[cimmy wuv xxxooo]

This was very deep, emotional, heartfelt and sad.
Written straight from you're heart and it shows.
Your hurting and it shows within every line.
Although I think with the suicide thoughts you may be going a little far.
Heartbreaks hurt there a son of a b***h alright, but its not the end of the world, and all in good time you will be ok.
One day im sure you will find the one, everyone goes though some heartaches on the way.

Anyway I liked the poem and the rhyming was great :)
Keep writing :)