Insomnia

Sleepless nights brought on by depression.

These nights are getting longer now

It's only 1 AM, but it feels like the morning, how?

I'm tossing and turning in my bed, dreaming

I wake up drenched in sweat, and I'm screaming

Because these nightmares are keeping me from sleeping

My eyes feel so heavy, but stay open beaming

Staring at these walls, but I swear I see a demon

When I close my eyes, I wonder why you are always leaving

Me, in my dreams, and my reality

I can't tell the difference, I cant even see

What I am. The one that existed before the pain

The one that dosen't make me stay up, thinking rhythms to the rain

So I get up, write it down so It will leave my brain

Then 30 minuets are gone, it drives me insane

Then it's 2 AM, I feel ashamed

Cause I keep myself up, only me to blame

So I rest my head on this pillow, and think about what I became

A bruised and broken person, holding onto his bane

And, damn, it's 3 AM, this time went by quick

Maybe if I empty my head, I might sleep a bit

And as it empties, it fills with something else

The pain that you caused, so now I'm crying to myself'

I think "Oh great, another night you cry yourself to sleep"

Damn, I think I will never sleep deep

So I try and seep the pain out, get a hold of my head

Then try and tell myself I will end up ahead

Then tears keep me awake, water always wiped from my eyes

Will this poem ever end? I still feel this painful vibe

Before I know it, it's 4 o'clock in the night

Without any sleep, my mind can't be right

Two hours left to sleep, I cant do it again

So I try and lie down, but realize I can't put down this pen

I keep writing, and writing, about my struggles

Try to fix my head that is in pieces and puzzled

So I just give up, don't look at the time, I've had enough

Then my alarm goes off, 6 o'clock, time to get up.

Reviews

[Dev~lovableguy]

Hey Light, whoever you are dude, I appreciate your work and I am not just saying it for the sake of humanity. I swear, your poem made me emotional. It evokes the painful feeling of the person. I dont know if that person is you yourself or not but if you are, Buddy dont you worry....Your good days are nearby! :)
With Love...DEV