Silently Screaming

Not that anyone could guess
I'm a f*****g mess
On the outside I'm just like the rest
But inside I'm a wreck
I wear my mask quite well
Even though my mind puts me through hell
I'm beaten down and broken
Words often unspoken
Depression
Anxiety
And a longing for so much more
They all say life is an open door
So why can't I open it?
Long ago I feel into this pit
I don't know that I'll ever be able to climb out
Because no one can hear
even at the top of my lungs a silent scream
I shout!