it's been twenty years

it's been twenty years

A Poem by Lydia Shutter


“Lynn” pastel portrait of a blonde woman in black
by Jill Stefani Wagner, PSA








it’s been twenty years, daddy
i’ve aged more than the calendar shows
not sure you would even know me now
even the tulips in my garden are drooping
they reflect my melancholy 

my dance card has only smudged memories
of the days when i heard your laughter
saw that small space between your two front teeth
smelled your after shave
and felt your love

you always said,
“life is in the etceteras
so pilfer what you can”
so, yea,  i’ve stolen back my own life
but i’m just an orphaned thief now
there’s no one to remember 
the good old-bad old days
except me
and that’s little consolation today
because it’s been twenty years, daddy

© 2014 Lydia Shutter


Author's Note

Lydia Shutter
missing my father after twenty years....such a long time

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For one reason or another, I have been missing my mother and father so much lately...
I read your poem and it truly touched my heart..

my dance card has only smudged memories
of the days when i heard your laughter
saw that small space between your two front teeth
smelled your after shave
and felt your love

Hold those memories close Lydi.
Your poem is lovely. Going into my favorites
:) Julie

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Must be that "super moon" we had....who knows? Yes, I know you were close to your parents as I was .. read more



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Lydia. I found this both a poignant, yet somehow beautiful poem in memory of your dear father. My dad is sixty eight now. He suffers from CML, (chronic myeloid leukemia,) which thankfully is being held at bay by some wonderful new treatments. It seems not to bother him anywhere near as much as it bothers my sisters and brothers and I, and he has absolutely forbidden us kids to tell the grandchildren (four now,) about his illness and he seems to just sail blithely on as if the condition is no more than a minor irritation. He is such a constant in my life that I don't want even to think about the fact that nobody lives forever. Twenty years, such a long, long time, but such memories are of course everlasting.

Bless you,

Beccy.

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Your dad has a great attitude....and I commend him. My father was the same way...through three canc.. read more
I really love this poem Lydi. These lines brought tears Lydi, "but i’m just an orphaned thief now
there’s no one to remember
the good old-bad old days
except me"

And they tell us that the pain of losing a loved one fades... maybe for someone who doesn't have a heart. Your heart is huge and always woven into your poems.... I'd say "nice" but this doesn't convey enough.
~~redzone


Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Curt, you are so empathetic and compassionate and that means the world to me. No, the pain of losin.. read more
' Tomorrow is promised to none ' ; so prudent to savour and enjoy the time we have here, especially with those we are close too!

A poignant remembrance of your dear father, the sentiment is touching and sincere, nicely conveyed Lydia!

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you very much, Tom. He meant the world to me and I miss him every day. Lydi**
This was so sad sad Lydia. I know this feeling, though it hasn't been quite that long. It will always be something that pulls at me. Your poem today expresses that sorrow perfectly. I really enjoyed this today.

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

I am sorry you understand so well. Very sad to lose a parent you love so much. Thank you for your .. read more
a beautiful tribute it made me think
my x wife died in april her father died years ago and
her mother passed a couple years back and somewhere
in between her only brother died the home place was bought by strangers
but the point is the whole family has disappeared like they never existed

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

It's so true, Ron....and that is how I feel. I am the last one left. No aunts, uncles, cousins, no.. read more
 wordman

7 Years Ago

you are welcome ,me and one sister.
I have a dear friend who lost her father when he was only fifty... She still calls him "Daddy" and I think she will never feel whole again until she is with him in the heavens...
You remind me of her and how precious and enduring love can be between a father and child.
A lovely poem and a write I know lives deep within your soul.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

David, thank you for sharing your friend's experience with me. The love between a father and daught.. read more
may he continually rest well.....

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you, Cassie! Lydi**
Yes, such a long time, Lydi. But a father's memory will never be erased from a daughter's heart.
I can feel you in this piece. So emotional as for me when it comes to parent-child relationship.

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Thank you, sweet Dh.....no, the memories are never erased. I miss him always. Lydi**
No matter the passing of time, our hearts will always document the years.
I am with you, Lydi..."not sure you would even know me now".
How profound this reads, and how beautiful...

Kelly


Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Every experience in life changes us to a certain degree, Kelly....and not always for the better. Th.. read more
Dear, I felt this one to the bones, you miss him, so much, another year passed by, and it has been so so long, but so fresh in your memory still, your dad, was a wise man... "“life is in the etceteras
so pilfer what you can” such a true saying, he lives further in you, and I can tell you through you, for you are a wonderful person. (that's not for nothing). :) smiling here. Such a beautiful write my dear friend. Very touching.

- Elisa

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

Als je schrijft me je Nederlandse woorden, het maakt me blij! Knuffels, Lydi**

7 Years Ago

Awe, het maakt mij ook erg blij om te schrijven in mijn moedertaal... en samen met jou! Heel veel li.. read more
Lydia Shutter

7 Years Ago

(((((((((Elisa)))))))))))))))))) knuffels!

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