Am I Gonna Die?

What is a life without sadness once in a while...?

It's unusual when I embrace the cold
This night has captured my soul
Right now, as much as I want to
I can't get away from the frozen tundra

Toss and turn, the insomnia's alive
The TV's still on, but I am totally off
Deep does the judge's blade plunge
And the warmth leaves my body

Am I gonna die?
Am I gonna die?

I'm always the friend they turn to
When everything is going absolutely wrong
And although I do whatever it takes
It seems like I'm the one in despair

Am I gonna die?
Am I gonna die?

...No!  It's not my time to go
It's not the end of the world
Don't yell at me when I'm feeling down
I'm sensitive, I'm crazy, it's who I am

Everyone has their low points
All of humanity knows how I feel
So whenever I'm not in the mood
You need to understand that I'm only human

Sometimes I feel like I'm behind
And everyone is ahead of me (so far away)
Sometimes I believe I'm at the top
And no one can bring me down (no way)

Here, I can sense that my world is dead
And they will paint the void red
There, my sanctuary is indestructible
And nothing can break it down

So once in a while, I feel so low
That I swear I'm standing in hell
Is it wrong to cry just a little?
Do I have to be smiling all the time?

Am I gonna die?
Am I gonna die?

...No!  It's not my time to go
It's not the end of the world
Don't yell at me when I'm feeling down
I'm sensitive, I'm crazy, it's who I am

Everyone has their low points
All of humanity knows how I feel
So whenever I'm not in the mood
You need to understand that I'm only human

Come on, pull up a chair, sit down
And watch my life fluid pour out
Don't argue about it, don't judge me
I can feel pain like anyone else

Once in a while, I cannot bear it
So I let it out, one tear at a time
Is that such a sin?
You misunderstand that I am...

Only...
...Human.

...Am I gonna die?

...No!  It's not my time to go
It's not the end of the world
Don't yell at me when I'm feeling down
I'm sensitive, I'm crazy, it's who I am

Everyone has their low points
All of humanity knows how I feel
So whenever I'm not in the mood
You need to understand that I'm only human

Human...  I'm only human...
...I'm only gonna live one life.

Author's Note

This is my latest song. I was feeling emotionally horrible last night and was initiated by someone to let it all out. The result was this song that I have pictured being accompanied by hard, classical rock.

Critiques are more than welcome.