YOUR WORDS

people say so much...….

You might think that I don't listen, but each word, each letter haunts me with a cacophony as painful
as a screech of nails on chalkboard, which leaves me shivering in self doubt
Your words are like hot candle wax which burn immediately the skin underneath and leave scars that
penetrate deeper than my darkened skin.

Each word is like a firearm without license, you fire wherever you want whenever you want.
When I feel like crying ,I console myself by believing what you say and shaping my thoughts around yours
If I cry I am sensitive, I am oblivious of reality, I am complaining.
But without those words which you think I don't listen to I am happy, I do not worry about not worrying
and I do not have to go purchasing band-aids for the bullet holes that you embedd in me.

You call it lack of morale but it is actually lack of courage to stand up against someone I admired,
which makes your words seem like an incessant stab on the same vulnerable spot.
You said what you wanted
It darkened my skin, made my body quiver and made me unsure about wanting to be me

I am hurt but I wont tell you
for it might hurt you.

Reviews

[Robert Trakofler]

Abuse is abuse is abuse wrote some great poet once about a rose... I firstly must say this expression you placed is authentic introspective and sincere those three things are enough in and of itself!!!! (I say this in regards to your guidance statement in writing without discipline) Many writers take many years to be able to express so raw. Conversational bullet points are as damaging as a hand across the face and sometimes more my dear your feelings are authentic as well your thoughts and in this so are you never let someone take the you from you as a man who once lived a long time as a specter I can tell you it is easy to become one and much harder to leave the ethereal plane of existence! Keep tapping the keystrokes Manya you are walking down the right path:)

[Manya]

sir,
I joined this community to gain some sought of a boost to my writing. I never thought I had the patience to write and express until I jot down my first poem. Your kind and detailed words have given me a reason to continue posting.
Thank you so very much
Please ontinue reading
Manya

[Robert Trakofler]

I will indeed Manya:)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

seems like the other person needs "word control" doesn't understand how painful words can be and how they can penetrate the skin and go right to the heart.
and those band-aids get really expensive...and they don't stick that well, anyhow.
good piece...lots of feeling in this..
j.

[Manya]

thanks for stopping by..

[Jeyanthi]

I mean great writing......

[Jeyanthi]

Yeah...
It's like haunting...
Great yaar..

[Dave Brown]

Do you read John the Baptist?
He wrote on much this same subject
I appreciate that it is sometimes easier to stay with a situation you know, rather than try and pull away to something unknown
You are at least getting your feelings out, hopefully more will follow