Tired

What you see is what I allow you to see
You see my smile you don’t see my tears I
Suppress my feelings and I have for years
No one can save me now I’m too far gone
I don’t remember a time when i wasn’t broken
I’m tired of praying and I’m tired of hoping..
My head is always in a mess
Don’t know whether I’m coming or going
All I seem to do is cause more stress
My whole life seems to have been a lie
Sometimes I just breakdown and cry.
And worse sometimes I even wanna die
I’m sorry because I know these words will hurt
But I can’t keep this s**t in longer
And we all know why.
No matter what I do I just get hurt
People tell me I’m too nice for my own good
But to be unkind I only wish I could
I’m a people pleaser
I see others and wish I could be like her.
I don’t even know who I am
Inside il always be the girl who let guys abuse her.
In that split second my childhood was gone.
Even worse it wasn’t just the one