(X) Years Coming: A Kid From PalletA Poem by Jesse LancasterGiving up before we win.
Previous Version This is a previous version of (X) Years Coming: A Kid From Pallet. I know. I know it hurt. I know it might not have been what you wanted to see. I know you filled your head with thoughts of what we could be, so close. I know you thought I was so close you could almost smell the cologne. I know it's hard to understand me. I know I won't be able to make you see how it felt. Someone just like the former, interested in me. Different, new and inviting--while you were miles away. Mere miles still feeling like whole states. Worlds apart. I know you'll see me like the others--boys looking for attention, just to f**k you over. But I'm not. I'm still me. I'm the same boy you've known for (X) years, now. Yet changed, even so. I know I'm impatient, an opportunist at my worst. I know I'm selfish. I know I didn't call. You weren't the only one. I don't know if I was always like this: acting before thinking of how it would affect others. I don't know if we'll ever be the same. I know I hate who I was, but I didn't know you loved him. Drowning. We both know I'm not proud of myself. _________________________________________________________________________________ This is the root of our nature, we hate ourselves and we don’t know why… This is the root of our nature, we numb ourselves until we die. -400 Blows, “The Root of Our Nature”
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Added on October 15, 2011 Last Updated on October 16, 2011 Tags: I know, I fucked up, close, not what you wanted, worlds apart, sorry, solski AuthorJesse LancasterManchester, CTAboutI'm Jesse Lancaster. No I'm not. I am: 19 And now: @ Uni for my sophomore year. My writing draws heavy influences from the music I listen to, other writers (such as Chuck Palahniuk, John Green a.. more..Writing
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