Shared afterlife

This is a story inspired by my exgirlfriend brandi rose smith. i hope you all like it.....

Whatmore is there to tell?

I have given all i have to relationships. I can't take anymore torture. Why can't i find a girl who actually appreciates who i am?  Why i am? Where i am?  Where am i anyway? I really have no clue anymore. It's all ablur now. I can't decipher one dayto the next.  Each one loses more & more color, & they're all blending together.  I have nothing to even keep me awake.  I'm having to force myself to stay awake right now.

 

Am i such a weakling,

When of her i'm singing,

Chills run down my spine,

That tell me i am not fine.

I see her face when i look at you,

I hear her voice when i talk to you,

Every night in white moon light,

With the man in the mirror i shall fight.

As my desire grows,

Burning like the crackling flame,

Looking at myself "You're the one who chose,

To put upon yourself the blame,

So living with it as you do,

Everyday just starts anew,

Fire burning in your head,

Sedatives until you're dead.

Leave no mental stone unturned,

In the never-ending sea,

You shall ever be burned."

 

As you see your own reflection,

With a look of hate & pure disgression,

Cannot breathe to hear your heartbeat,

Slowly it gets closer to finally getting closure.

 

Oh so calm no more talking,

Muscles gone no more walking,

No more will to bring it back,

No more need to keep track,

No more i need to breathe,

No more i need to sleep,

Only you & me,

Sharing life six feet deep.

Author's Note

I might not be on for quite some time. Making this took so much out of me that i need time to recover. It's not the lyrics that bother me.......it's who i wrote it about..... goodbye for now