At 12

At 12

A Poem by Speak in Silence

The detentions of fate shatter
Break into small, unrepairable pieces
Look into the mirror, see nothing
Everyday the insanity increases

Severed shreds of crushed hearts
floods back into memory leaving behind scars
The heart fades into nothingness
A place that used to not have bars

Hallucinations of madness
Fantasy of being sane
Agonized feeling inside
Hope to hit a vein

Whispers of deceit crowd around
Murmurs of betrayal and warnings to beware
The defiant silence lingers within
Her world jolts with slander and glares

Breathe in the distortion of the end
Shallow insulations from years or torment
Disconnection from him slowly kills her
Without him she is worth nothing, she has no way to vent

The ledge lays out over the city lights
The frigid January air cuts through the room
Goosebumps rise quickly on her skin
Her mind is somewhere else, her soul is up for exhume

The city lye's a thousand feet below
She dares to look down but is afraid for the sight
AS she glares back at the clock it dares to be 11:57
For almost midnight the stars shine bright

Breathing in, the bitter air bit at her lungs
Closing her eyes she stepped up onto the ledge
The piercing temperature made her shake violently
She knew this time there was no going back
She was officially on the edge

Opening her eyes, she looked at the clock
It was 11:59
It was almost time
A shiver went down her spine

She gave a little laugh
One that would give most a shiver
Make most people take a step back
One that no sane person would deliver

"5.....4.....3.....2..........1"

Her door began to shutter
She heard the screaming
She knew they had gotten her note
The city lights were gleaming

She peered back just as the clock turned 12
A smirk grew across her face
The sounds of people running towards her didn't matter
She closed her eyes and stepped forward into dead space

That night he stood on the same ledge
Staring down into the lights
He stood there for hours
Slept there all nights

The brilliance from his eyes faded
The love in his heart died
The life disappeared
He regretted all the times he lied

That night Garret died
The day he left her, Leah died

Last night Garret was found dead
Next to the letter Leah wrote
Along with a golden promise ring
And another note

Leah's Note:

You will not receive this until it's far to late. Tonight I will be standing on my balcony ledge, with a golden promise ring. At 12 I will jump. Tonight the stars will line up the moon and prove the love we shared. Tonight I will change your life forever, just like the day I meet you, and just like the day you walked out. I just want you to know Garret, that I forgive you, and no matter what you ever do, I will always love you.

Garret's note:

You will never receive this but I know somehow you will get it. Tonight I will have a golden promise ring in one hand and a gun in the other. Tonight at 12 I will pull the trigger. Tonight there will be an eclipse. The stars will line up with the sun. The night you died I came to visit you for the first time because I realized what I did was wrong and that I really love you. I guess I came to late. Tonight, I will not change anyone's life, but tonight, I will die. I will die knowing that I've killed you. I am sorry. I can never forgive myself. But I love you, forever.

© 2012 Speak in Silence


Author's Note

Speak in Silence
Tell me what you think....I personally don't like this one but if you do tell me. But if you don't tell me also, maybe I can make some changes. I don't know, just something about this one is weird.

Well anyways this isn't based on truth. Just something I thought of.

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...This made me cry :'( loss for words....I to have felt something like this, hatred for myself....Sadness...Longing....Love that had no place to go....But we have to stay strong and learn form our mistakes...Miss. Mayhem this is a work of art; Shakespeare would grovel at your feet!! I give you a Rate of 100

Posted 7 Years Ago


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Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much! I'm so glad I could make you feel such strong emotion through my words. It means .. read more



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...This made me cry :'( loss for words....I to have felt something like this, hatred for myself....Sadness...Longing....Love that had no place to go....But we have to stay strong and learn form our mistakes...Miss. Mayhem this is a work of art; Shakespeare would grovel at your feet!! I give you a Rate of 100

Posted 7 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much! I'm so glad I could make you feel such strong emotion through my words. It means .. read more
Wow... snap snap snap. This poem left me speechless. It's unique and creative and I really haven't read anything like this.. ever. I seriously enjoyed the read. You are a talented writer, amazing!

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much (:
Miss Mayhem, I am speechless!!! What a creative write this is. I have so many favourite lines it's insane!!!! wow,I really really like this alot!!!! You have a killer imagination my friend,shelving this one in my library. (DARK REALM GROUP)

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Why thank you (:
My favorite line (although there were many), was in the beginning.

"The heart fades into nothingness
A place that used to not have bars"

From that point on I was captured by its raw truth. very enjoyable poem.

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Thank you (:
Wow... in my opinion, this is exceptional. It's unique but so well written and emotional. I really enjoyed this! :)

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Thank you so much (:
I like the morbid picture by the title of the poem. This poem truly reflects the romeo and juliet complex. Pain is love and Love is pain. I can't live with pain but I can't live without love is truly the underlying message here. I'd rather be on the receiving end of love after pain. Very well written. I was absorb in it the whole time I was reading it. Great write. I know you got more on the way. :)

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

Yes, everything you said is good points. Thanks for all the compliments (:
Why dont you like it? Its a very sad and emotional piece, but it demonstartes good writing and storytelling. The combination of the notes at the end adds an extra dimension to it too.

Posted 7 Years Ago


Speak in Silence

7 Years Ago

I'm not sure why I didn't like it. But thank you for the reassurance and compliments (:

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Added on October 7, 2012
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Tags: 12, twelve, love, dead, death, gun, jump, promise rings, lies

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