I remember it all

Those flashbacks you get when you try to move on and forget. My ex, my best friend , my first love and most f all , my biggest loss .

I remember 
I remember it all
All the good and even the bad
Every single fight we had
And every single laugh we shared 
It’s running through my head
I don’t like that because it hurts too much
So I cry because I’m not so rough 
When it comes to you , I’ve never been so tough
But you loved that about me 
You loved the fact that I was weak for you 
Now, that you’re gone , out of sight
My heart keeps calling your name every night
I start to cry, and I remember 
How we used to tease each other
How you used to keep me warm in cold days of December
How you used to miss me when we weren’t together 
This feeling hurts so much that I can’t describe 
The memories show up in front of my eyes 
I laugh at ones and at others I cry
I miss you and I still love you, that’s no lie 
I’m out of breath, my chest tightens up
Because I remember it all 
All 7 years , in few seconds it popped out
And made me cry my eyes and heart out
What a torture , I never thought it would be this hard
I wonder if you feeling the same or I’m already out of your mind and heart
Anyways , all I know is that , every night I write you a letter and now I’ll do that
And then keep it with the “unsent” , so one day I read it and I’ll remember …
Yes, this torture , I’ll remember it all …

23/04/2018