Floating

My take on the suicidal tendencies that plague my brain

Floating
Down a river of uncertainty
Flowing into a sea of doubts and fears.
Waves of loneliness crash into me.
Filling my lungs with suffocating agony.
My heart races, arms flailing
Fighting to stay afloat.
Every desperate breath cut short by yet another wave.
I struggle to keep my head above water
But the current is too strong.
I’m pulled under by the weight of it all.

Drowning.

I struggle to find something to hold on to.
Anything to keep me from sinking deeper into the depths of this despair.
Strength failing me, the darkness starts to set in behind my eyes.
Then a calm washes over me.
Something tells me I can let go.
I can stop fighting if I want to.

Peace.

A seductive whisper in my ear.
Promising peace at last if I would just let go.
Rest seems so close.
But I can’t let go.
Not yet.
Something deep inside pushes me up just enough.
A breath of fresh air.
A single flicker of hope dances into view.

This is where I have remained.
Neither yet swallowed by the vengeful sea, nor saved by dry land.
Still drowning.
Still fighting.

Reviews

[Poetic Beauty]

This shows great emotion of the struggles we can face in life. I love the imagery of being swept away with a current yet fighting to stay above water; whether it be financial, lost love, death, or depression, it fits and is relatable for anyone reading. I think we have all felt this at one time or another.

[Brandi Nicole]

Man...I spent a lot of years drowning. I remember wanting to give up, but also loving life. Keep fighting....and remember you aren't alone.

[Patricia]

So this is a bit overwhelming in that I nearly drowned as a kid and this is exactly what it feels like, so to feel this way still drowning, still fighting is gripping and painful and to be lost in that struggle makes me sad and metaphorically it’s well written

[Coyote Poetry]

I liked the honest thoughts and the directness of the words.
"This is where I have remained.
Neither yet swallowed by the vengeful sea, nor saved by dry land.
Still drowning.
Still fighting."
the above lines could stand alone. I liked them. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[That1Nerd23]

Oh wow, love. This is amazing. The way you expressed your emotions so flawlessly is something that really got my attention. Especially involving such a relatable topic. Great job!

[Curtis.Lenker]

Thanks for sharing this powerful piece here. I know exactly how you feel. I have been here many times. I know how hard it is to fight when you don't want to. I know how hard it is to keep your head above water when you want to drown. The poem is very relatable to me and describes how I feel perfectly. Thanks for sharing and keep up the great work.